I don’t quite know what to say other than I would really appreciate some input on my situation . I have been diagnosed for almost 3 years now and even though I know I am unwell and I can usually deal with symptoms ( I try to take very little medication because it cause sleep deprivation and that causes real bad onset as u all may know ) but lately they have become so profound and earth shattering that I no longer can identify my symptoms and I feel that the entity I fear is within all people around me , with TV and the media , he visits me while I try to sleep and forces hands in my mouth and holds me down . I know that nothing can make these feelings go away but in the darkness it would be nice to have a hand to hold so to speak .
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We’re at the mercy of our meds. All you can do is tell your psychiatrist what’s going on, and ask for a med adjustment. 
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Yes. Talk to your pdoc. Try a different med that won’t cause the side effects you are experiencing.
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Yes I would suggest a meds modification, maybe your not responding to the type or dose, goodluck! Keep us posted!
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Hang in there and eventually the demons will subside - especially if you can get on the right kind and dose of medication(s). Never give up my friend!
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Like everyone else says, try a new med. some of them cause restlessness, and some of them actually make you sleep more. Ask your doctor for a less activating med, and then take it at the same time every day. If you aren’t taking it consistently, you might as well not be taking it at all.
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I have been there before many times…I am very sorry you are dealing with this…
My best advice/how I dealed was constantly reminding myself that the demon could not hurt me and that it was bound by God’s word…so even if it tried touching me I could call on God and send it away…and aside from that I tried my best to NOT ENGAGE with the demon at all…if I feel it calling or trying to communicate with me ignore it…pulled away from it with everything I had…focused on the positive and light…
These periods where they consume everything in your life can and will pass. Good luck to you
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thank you so much for kind words , I have been on olanzapine , Queatapine, amisulpride and several mood stabilisers it seems I am what they call a “paradoxical” so I think meds have the reverse to usual effect on me , I try to stay positive and my next appointment is 20th of December , this is the anniversary of my father’s death 3 years ago and I belive very strongly that me and my demon killed him so that day will be a challenge , I’m thinking maybe a health nurse could help but in the UK it’s hard to get such things and I fear my appointments have become nothing more than a “sit in and observe the madness” for an hour by my doc , I would like to talk more and this is the first time I’ve opened up since *coming out as a schizophrenic so to speak . thank you all for your input it’s greatly appreciated
My demons/devil went away after I decided to stop believing in demons or angels . I just did away with that idea and eventually they stopped.
But of course it was never really demons. It was voices that are from my own brain so of course they began other tactics such as aliens or deceased famous people and other stuff.
Now I just know it’s all nonsense
There pretty quiet these days though 
They didn’t really start quieting down till about year 4-5
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thank u I understand what you mean , the power of my schizophrenic brain has manifested a demon to be afraid of it taught me" lessons " and its always some aspect of myself that is jaded or negative , I understand this most days and my intelligence which I’ve been told is fairly high, allows me a certain logic to understand ,that a chemical imbalance combined with environmental factors and trauma have resulted in this demon , it’s just unfortunate my marvellous brain makes me see , hear, smell , feel and taste the monster within . I would like to talk more with you sir level 
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Yes, psychosis is built entirely upon a person’s beliefs, thus eliminating those beliefs can change the form of the psychosis. (I have been very interested in seeing how my psychosis has changed and developed as my beliefs have)
However I’m not a fan of others suggesting to just stop believing in things as a coping method because that is much easier said than done, especially when a person is constantly experiencing things that reinforce those beliefs. Everyone develops and discards beliefs in their own way and in their own time.
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I have many beliefs and my symptoms reinforce that , it’s great to hear people who know what it’s like so refreshing thank you so much
I’m so sorry about your father. I lost mine almost ten years ago, and the anniversary is always hard for me. For a long time, I thought I was a demon who fed on the life force of others, and the reason he died was because I drained his life. Now, that feeling has mostly passed, but it comes back on the anniversary of his death. When it happens to me, I come on here and talk about it, and the friendly folks here help me calm down.
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Demons come, and demons go - and there is only one. Resist the Devil and he flees from you. Amen.
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He doesn’t flee if he’s one of your voices though. Bah humbug
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Nevertheless … resist! …
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A Zen master had two dogs, one white, and one black. The two were fighting viciously one day and one of the Zen master’s pupils asked the old sage which one usually won. The master said, “The one I feed the most.”
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Aside from medication, religion and scientific reasoning seems to help me overcome fears that my symptoms are from some mysterious dark source.
I am into Sikhism, and Waheguru is one of the Creator’s names that I chant when I’m anxious or scared, which helped, and continues to help, me tremendously.
Also, the knowledge that negative symptoms are pretty much entirely based on your subconscious bias, and the level of anxiety you’re experiencing helps put a rational spin on things. Being on treatment that works turns things around substantially.
Paliperidone may be worth trying, it makes you drowsy. I was having issues being -too- drowsy on it, even.
ninjastar I believe almost the same thing , many have fallen around me . I feel like I’m the one that introduces loved ones to the demon and he takes it from there it almost feels like an infection something that doesn’t sit right then I can’t think about it because it will cause the manifesto of that death in question … heavy stuff x
this is me nice to know faces I think
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It’s a hard belief to get rid of. Do you talk about it in therapy? That helped me a lot.
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