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My character changes as per my med’s change.
I have lost my own character.
Its sad I am not able to do anything I used to do before.
Its like I am on brakes an imaginary one, and don’t even know I am on one.
Until today.
Not able to think anything.
What do you guys think of this?
Sounds typical for a sz or sza. Tonight I’m like a baby who doesn’t want to go to sleep. Usually my meds get me in the mood. I slept about 3 hours last night and had a manic episode today brought on mysteriously. I’m burnt out but my body is awake.
A B C I really can relate to what you are saying. For the first time since my meds reduction 2 month ago I must say I think of nothing and
I’ve no drive to do anything.
Sounds like negative symptoms.
A musical instrument will make you work. Don’t ask me how that happens to a self taught person, maybe it’s supernatural. Boredom will inspire you to do something. Pain is the greatest motivator. And necessity. I didn’t do anything today but practice guitar 25 minutes. I slept. I cleaned my kitchen which took just a few minutes and cooked a simple meal because I have to eat. I am practicing mandolin tonight and maybe do some reading or writing. I am taking a dose of sleeping meds to go to sleep because sometimes late at night or technically early in the morning I’m incapacitated and have akathesia and I am in hell. I will take more than the prescribed dose so I’m sure to sleep and if the doctor asks me I’ll be honest. Just wait till your mind comes back around if you get incapacitated like I do late at night sometimes. If I sleep well tonight tomorrow will be different. I’ll be sure to get out.
Its been 3rd day without smoke,
and oh yeah 
I feel better already,
I am able to watch youtube videos,
and slowly the meds are also pushing to do more activities,
yesterday eve had been out for a walk as well for an hour 
That’s great A B C. I’ve made the serous decision to tapper down from 400 mg Seroquel to 200 mg in the coming months to regain some of my abilities and loose some belly fat
Cool, keep going and make sure doc is kept informed.
I am planning to achieve some things before I visit my doc next.
And request to stop olanzapine 2.5 and aripiprazole 15 to 20mg.
Hopefully all gets progressed as planned.
When ever I make a time table I fail.
Its like I cannot follow it, since I have a character all or nothing,
I go for all out on doing some task, no breaks or shift of thought form the current task.
Its the only solution I have found.
Result of Split in med’s
I am waking up in the middle of night
and asking self is this how I like to proceed.
Its been 5 days after 
Lots of difference.
I had a dream of smoking too.
I feel so fresh, in breath as well as in mind.
My mind is working fine now,
need to place my mind to some tasks.
Does any one take aripiprazole 10mg at morning and 10mg at night?
I would say that Latuda made me do some awful things. But I now think the drug brought out my dark side instead.
I am now on aripiprazole 20 mg,
Its awesome, I am again on little manic state
and being able to do things.
Is that good?
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Yes, I am able to do things like read, make notes, understand and recollect.
It makes me achieve task, not major manic thought but little.
Its been almost 6 hours now, now planning to take a break.
I am now taking information slow, so what I am learning, I type those information down.
So the information goes slow into my mind and the med don’t disconnect those thoughts.
Who is this new me ?
I went out yesterday, and I believe everything what others say,
even a simple joke I nod and accept.
There a lack of confidence in me,
I feel only by beating on a craft one should become confident,
But to crack a joke, even its lame, confidence is good.
Do you guys know anything to gain confidence ?