Thank you for all the support and sorry I am not able to offer the same. I cannot control this and feel like I will never get out of this. I have insight and I think that is part of the problem. Why am I not able to control this. I feel so disgusting 
This is exactly like my episode six years ago before I went into psychosis.
No, not needed. You are more aware than ever, that’s a good thing, Ish.
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It’s all good @anon80629714, you’ll be back to being stable in no time, just have patience
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it just feels like its getting worse not better. i hate this i hate this so much.
Ish, you don’t need to be sorry. I think you haven’t yet met the right meds for your illness. If I was you, I’d keep trying new med.
Maybe something to curb the tide, like a little reprieve or loving man. Idk, honey, just asking.
I don’t know what to do. I have cut down work to half days but I can’t take this no more.
I wish I could help. I feel helpless myself in that I can’t help you. When I’m having a good day it hurts that I can’t transfer it to you. If wishing you well worked, you’d be ok.
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The company can’t discriminate over disability. If it’s the job, and not the illness, or even if it’s both, just cut your ties, but if they don’t help you, they have failed. Even alcoholics can get help and keep their job. There is life outside of symptoms, and I think you are on to what you need to do,
reaching out is a first sign.
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Ugh its back with a vengeance.
I get that, too. Insight is both a blessing and a curse, so to speak. It’s like it gives you an advantage of knowing when to ask for more help, but then you can also end up obsessing over symptoms which increases anxiety a lot.
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I take insight over lack of it any day of the week thank you very much!
It’s good you have insight, @anon80629714, it makes you less reckless.
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Yeah it’s good to have insight, the obsessing can just suck. But I think you are more advanced in stress management, too, @Minnii. Must have picked up on those mindfulness skills like a boss in therapy lol.
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I feel disgusting this morning myself, I drank myself stupid last night and ended up hitting the store for beer this morning due to an anxiety attack and that I ran out of my clonazepam a few days short. My hair is funky and weird due to I haven’t given it a buzz (I keep it short but not literally buzzed) in a few weeks.
You can keep it going and get through whatever you’re going through, I know that because if I can I believe anyone can, anyone can.
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Ish, with what you’re facing right now, I think it’s perfectly understandable to be having such a hard time. Even neurotypicals have a hard time dealing with this stuff. I wish I could say it gets better, but it will probably just get worse. You’ll eventually learn how to keep living though. You’re strong, and you’ve helped us all on occasion. Now you’re the one who needs support, and that’s what this community is about.
When my dad was sick, my neurotypical mom had to take meds. My neurotypical grandmother needed meds. It makes sense that you would need more/different meds now. That probably doesn’t make you feel any better, but hopefully you can stop feeling like a failure. This isn’t your disease coming back. This is you struggling with very real and terrible problems that the rest of your family is struggling with too. It just presents differently in our brains.
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loook i don’t do hugs but ((((((((heres one for you all)))))))))) Thanks so much !!!
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