Guys, I am sorry

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I have been doing bad, really bad this year. My mental health has been worse then before.
I have been acting out a lot, I had mood swings and mini episodes since octomber last year.

I had burned and hurt myself, I had broke some of my electronics, I had delusions of grandeur and been paranoic, I had mania.

I wanted to really hurt myself since a bad med change, I had a breakdown at work, quit and got rehired.

But I am not a bad guy, even if my mental health is getting worse I can manage it, I just want to say to you guys that I dislike to not be nice to you guys, I am a nice person. I have good intentions which get lost in my episodes.

We do need support and a loving environment, I do like that too, i hope this post finds you guys well and you realise I am just searching the same thing as you. Support, love, compassion and a family

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Hmm. . .

Good Job On Getting Rehired.

You Should Be Proud Of Your Boss And Yourself.

For There Is Always Sands In The Hourglass. Like The Oceanic Waves Of Redemption.

:purple_heart:

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That happened to me like 20 years ago. I was having horrible anxiety attacks, I asked for a 2 week leave of absence that turned into 6 months. But they rehired me in a less stressful position.

People go off the rails on this website sometimes, don’t worry about it. You made amends and seem like a good person. Concentrate on improving your mental health.

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Thank you, I am keeping it togheter, trying at least.

I’m glad you have been hired again, I know it’s important to have a place of work and an income especially at a young age.

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Yo dude weve all been through a lot no worries Im sure people understand whatever you did. Glad youre doing better now

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That was a very kind and thoughtful post. You’re fine. I didn’t have one negative thought about you. I hope you feel better soon. And we can be your online family. I hope you get love from your biological family, but there’s nothing wrong with meeting people who can become your chosen family. Lots of people rely on chosen family since their own family isn’t supportive enough. Regardless, I hope you get the support you need

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hey Croc, no worries, i am sure you are a nice guy, we all have things we are not proud of, focus on the good things is what i say, take care.

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I must’ve missed your offensive posts :stuck_out_tongue:. I don’t remember seeing anything so it’s all good in my book.

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It is ok, you are being too hard on yourself. Just try and relax, and do whatever you need to do to make your mental health better.

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I have been on a similar boat. They tried to change my meds and it backfired. I quit my job during this time and I wasn’t fully aware I was quitting but I did. I can’t get my job back but I am glad you did … :slight_smile:

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Hey I make offensive posts and never apologize lol Idk I just move on and try to not make the same mistakes again.

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Thank you guys, this means something

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yea i didn’t see you say anything bad either… but it’s good for me… you are nice. Don’t worry too much about the past.

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Here’s a (((hug))) for you.

I will not bite your ankles this week, either!

:heart:

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I’ve often found that if you are worried that you are a good person or not, then you probably are.

Just try to destress for a bit. Recenter the best you can. :slight_smile:

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