My ex pdoc was allowing my klonopin even on daily basis… My new pdoc doesn’t like this, but I have few meds still, only the zyprexa…
But lately, I have some remorses about my friends and family, my bad conscience is consuming me cause I am bad in socializing even though that I try it… I am too sensible, I can get paranoid from almost nothing…
The good is that I calmed down on my demons, I am in a period where I am learning to accept the illness, but after 20 years of isolation and illness, I am in bad situation yeah 
I try to do more things now, now I fight, but I need my klonopin now more than before when I was “calm” in my bed…
Is it so bad to take 0.5 mgs of klonopin daily?? I plan to reduce it or even stop it when I have less problems and when my zyprexa will work better, but the klonopin now helps me… maybe I turned into a junkie 
I dont increase the dosages though, but a benzo every day lol? That’s all…
Who else had to take them, cause it was helping the best? I have one friend who is on xanax every day since 5 years, but my curr6doc speaks badly about the benzos, he is scared of them I find…
I take Klonopin everyday. 
Your doc allows it? My previous one was seeing how my paranoia and anxiety were killing me, so she gave the green light about it, but the new doc is reluctant to this… but he doesnt care that I am scared now of dying, because of my years of inactivity and isolation…
Since how long you take it?
I need it to tbh, but all my friends, even the ill ones are afraid of the benzos lol…
Yes she allows it. I take 0.5mg twice a day. Plus, 60mg of Buspar. 
Ok, I see, thanks 
I’ll need it too I find… I can even think better on it, my cognitive deficits are better on it… My ex pdoc was saying, that I have the impression to cant think, cause I have mostly paranoid thoughts… yeap, I am sick, I was denying it before…
1 mg is a good dose, not so much, not nothing either…
The klonopin is a french med, they took it off the market in france in fact. But we still have the generic here in bulgaria. Does it still exist in your country? 
Take care you 
No need to feel as a junkie too with it? My pdoc was saying, that I am paranoid even about the meds lol…
There was only one benzo that did anything for me but now on meds they don’t work anymore
I wish my psych would prescribe me valium or something. She thinks that it wouldn’t be good for me because I have a history of mania and addiction.
I took yesterday clonazepam 1mg and slept likr a truck, feel anxious and uneasy this morning
i used to take lorazepam daily but in the last psych ward they stopped that slowly… now i only take lorazepam when my pdoc or gp doc says i need one.
The benzos are the only meds which help me a bit. I need the ap too, but its help is poor…
Idk, lately, I am taking a benzo every day… lately, I have the fear of dying too, cause I wonder if my body isn’t destroyed by 20 years old inactivity, I have my cigarettes and I have problems swallowing hard food… the ads always raised my paranoia and worsened my conversion disorder… idk… tbh, today was hell… I took one ativan now. But itll be scary if my quality of life doesn’t get better even on benzos… believe me, I fight every day now, since an year, which is new for me, but I crash still every day, mainly in the evenings I guess where I am very desperate about my future and where my body betrays me 
I know many people are on benzos too… but I took my klonopin once in 4 days since 5 years tbh… but I cant handle anymore the pain, I should not suffer like this, so maybe I’ll start benzos every day… to be on them a whole life, is it possible? Without being a junkie?
I was denying before that I am sick, but now I know it… it’s new this acceptance for me… no matter that I was knowing myself as sz even here since years…
Idk, I try to regain some life now, but I am still paranoid and anxious, which affect even my body so I am fed up…
Maybe I’ll take my benzos yeap… the docs dont know anymore what other ap to give me, they dont work well on me… only the zyprexa helps a bit, to be on my feet, but I am in a hellish pain sometimes even with it…
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