well, she said I am too hard with myself. she said that I gave up in the past yeap… She said that probably my weed made me worse. I wasn’t so bad till the weed and I smoked a lot in the past, in the worst possible conditions (always alone, with the tv and the internet)… She said that it takes time to recover, probably years in my case yes and that she is not lying. she just sees my state I guess. She prescribed me some new benzodiazepine which ill try probably. Its been just a ween that I raised my Zyprexa too so idk if it helps me or it worsen me cause I feel strange still, not quite well.
She said that I should go out with friends or whatever it is. She said that my mother is obsessed with her own problems so I should care more about myself.
Ok, I am sad cause I see how serious it is now. Ill try to keep believing that’s all, but I was dumb to get to this point yeah… whatever, I guess when you have a relative with a mi is always harder. I didn’t have a lot of love from my father I think too…
hugs to all 
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What’s the benzo you were given is it klonopin. Hope it helps.
Oh, its Ativan. Its new here in my country… I take klonopin since years so she wanted to change the benzo because of eventual addiction…
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Oh cool I took Ativan but only in the hospital. It’s got a shorter half life and a little more kick than klonopin I think. What dose are you going to take?
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one half in the morning ( from the pill of 2,5mg) and one half in the evening. But ill see if ill take it every day. Cause what the point if it even the Ativan wont pull me outside? klonopin doesn’t do it cause i am so deep in the illness already and my stubbornness, sadness etc…