Ok, i have my sensations in my head… Maybe i worry a lot, but i often feel my brain in my head and its a pain…
It feels even like my those sensations should tighten up a bit… Not this fragile, soft feeling of a mess in my head and the paranoia and anxiety which result…
Maybe my meds can work after years now, no? Maybe they were even a ‘‘killer’’ of normality in their start, but they can end up by being effective after this shock?
My ex pdoc said, that switching aps doesnt work in my case and she said to remain on zyprexa… There was no big improvement till now, after 4 years, but in the same time i am ill since 2 decades, so maybe i need years yeap… My pdoc was saying, that my ap can work in years for me, but this still sound to me a bit as a lie lol…
I know that feel. Every SZ goes through that soft head feeling. It doesn’t get better on its own though, that’s the sad part.
Meds help a bit, but there’s a low ceiling.
In fact i feel my thoughts quite sharply, almost till pain… And i focus sooo much on my head and brain… I wonder if its some form of somatic delusion or more of an ill thinking? Tbh, i have thinking deficits no matter, that i think all the time… But my thinking remains a bit soft, not certain i find… And one of the result to feel my brain in my head like this is that i look quite pale and i get nauseous lol… Its somatic too, but maybe my thinking is just screwed up…The confidence in it etc…
Idk if one day, my zyprexa will ‘‘kill’’ those sensations and give me back a thinking, where i’ll feel human again 
But i dont rely so much on the meds too anymore, yeap… I try to discover and think on the life too 
. But my forces are weak still, its hard to count on yourself only when nothing works…
If it’s inflamed enough, you’re forced to pay a disruptive amount of attention to that area of the body. Your biology demands as much.
Takes insane amounts of will to ignore that and do things.
Ok, i see. Idk anything about the inflammation…
My pdoc was saying, that i have the impression to cant think, cause my brain is mostly anxious and paranoid… But yeah, some anxiety is in my head and body a lot, even when i try to ignore… Idk, maybe my zyprexa will end up by killing this sensation… Well, if its up to get better on the intellectual deficits and the negatives, i guess it’ll be harder though…
I’m hopeful about treatment paths but I can’t really dispense all the info I want to here. Unorthodox.
There is some headway in terms of certain supplements but it’s a slow kind of build to making a case for them.
I’d recommend Amyloban and Wen Dan Pian, for starters.
May tilt the balance in favor of some kind of functionality. But they’re crutches ultimately. They don’t heal you.
Tbh, i wait a bit for one big tightening kick in my head from the zyprexa, so this pain there will stop… A kick of tightening yeap, cause it seems to me quite physical still…
Amyloban helped a number of people on this forum. @shutterbug is able to comfortably handle full time work on it with a minimal Geodon dose due to that, for example. Strongly recommend for starters.
Wen Dan Pian is cheap traditional chinese medicine for sz, it’s just herbs. You can buy a bottle for $15, if you’re in the US. Tiny investment for a potential sanity booster.
I have been able to feel my brain in my head before it’s very unusual.
I focus on my brain like this since ten years tbh… Do you think its a delusion? Or more of a somatic thing?
yeah, i am dumb …
Maybe the zyprexa will stop this even if its after years?
i am glad you are better now though, really
I don’t know what it is. It was very weird though.
I’m up to 40mg/day, 20 in the morning and 20 with supper. November was unkind to me and I’m trying to get back on an even keel. Experiencing some positives at the present time.
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