Hi all.
Well, I still struggle. Theres still nothing normal in my state, which is hard. I am here since two decades still wondering what is to feel ok. And I really don’t know it still . But maybe whatever this…
I am just noticing, that my Zyprexa in the evenings smashes my brain. I really feel some bad stuff in my head then. Its a pain. But is it possible to feel so badly my med, cause I am still ill, still too in the ‘‘low’’?.. In the day, I don’t feel smashed though. But I cant function in the evenings while being like this… It affects my body, my thoughts, my mind… The problem I sthat every other ap outside was even worse than the Zyprexa. I am a bit stuck with this med…
So can I try lowering it? And whats your opinion on this - that I feel it badly, cause I am still ill, is it possible this thing? The feeling is like I am too focused on the area of my brain. I feel something in my head, like I feel my brain. Sorry, that it sounds so crazy, but I ignore if its a delusion or some tactile stuff…
Otherwise I read you still. Lately I wonder if I am not borderline with psychotic features, but I am still not sure.
Have you ever talked to a gp about this head stuff that you feel? I know there’s a good chance it’s from the meds, or a tactile, but I think after this long and still not being sure that I would want to at least check with a regular doctor and ask some advice.
Its mental I think. Its the med or the illness, which struggles with the med still. But its good, that I don’t have this in the day. I am scared to lower this Zyprexa, cause it helps still a bit with my fears. But maybe I am too low in the illness and that’s why I feel the med so heavily? And if I become more active, I wouldn’t feel it like this?
The way I feel about Zyprexa is this, I feel if you were to keep touching the dose, your brain never catches a break. For stability, you have to be on the dose the pdoc prescribes. I know easier said than done, because I don’t follow this rule, but I’m getting better at it since I don’t take any oral APs, I only take 3 other oral meds. But I started off on 20mg of Zyprexa then over the course of like a year I got hiked up to 40mg because I started not responding to it because I felt like I didn’t need all that. For me to think I was on the highest dose to start off on and to end up on such a high dose in the end plus perphenazine, and two anxiety meds was like a big slap of reality that docs are just trying to help now that I look back. Its best to stay on a dose for a long period of time no matter what the dose is because it gives your brain a rest. I had to take the meds 3 times a day. The feelings you get taking your day dose will go away, just as long as you don’t skip anything avoid alcohol and limit caffeine.
Thanks led and winterblues for the help . Well, unfortunately I am ill. I was very ill too for very long time…
Yeap, my fears were hellish. Too strong, made me be unfunctional on almost everything… But winterblues, I am on this dose since a year? But I have 20 years of illness, yeap… But yes, there is a possibility, that I am too low still and that’s why I feel the med so much, isn’t it? And also - maybe I should go through this period of smashing effect until I feel better? Idk, but every evening its still the same thing. My doc didn’t know if the feeling of my brain is my illness or the med cause I had headaches even before the med. I forgot a bit some things…Yeah, I wish that I wont feel the Zyprexa like this, once I am more alive and active…
Is it common for the aps to smash our brains like this? lol…
This may not be helpful but when I take Zyprexa I feel the life taken out of my head, I feel tired and lethargic, all the creativity and motivation sucked out of me. I find caffeine helps me in the morning. I also wake up early because if I manage to doze back to sleep I sleep for 14 hours or more. There isn’t a solution to the feeling Zyprexa gives you but you can soothe it the best you can.
I’m sorry I don’t know what you mean by you are “too low”… but, I found since being on meds for 10 years, its better to ride it out. I get that impression now that I look back at my patterns and stuff my old case managers said. “alive and active”, yes I had problems with that too, that’s tough. Try to take a women’s multivitamin, and eat healthy. Start small, build up muscles and then you’ll feel like you can walk any where without much hydration. You get fit, and in shape, then your brain starts to sort things out, then you can express yourself better to get your needs met. I have more hope especially from coming on here and taking everyones advice saying we are all works in progress. Its easy to get stuck in the rut, but since I got my needs met, I’m on a another med the past 4 days and I already feel improvement and I see happiness, and I am no longer stuck in darkness. It helps me cope with my symptoms better. The think I feel you need to do is make small changes, because I felt like I didn’t have any where to go, and this life wasn’t going anywhere, but communication with people is important, and it helps us get through all these struggles that happen in life.
Ok, thank you winterblues. Well, probably I should not touch to this dosage… At a lower one I risk to have my fears back… Maybe I still need time yeap. I am a bit more opened to my friends and family. More mature too. But Zyprexa is a hard med yes. But like I said, I need it I guess.
What do you mean? Have your fears back? I don’t understand. What fears? Like paranoid delusions? If those are better then it’s probably best to leave the dosage alone for now.
By too low I guess I mean no mood, no emotions, no activity. But yes, I guess you are right, I need to be patient and continue my efforts. My doc doesn’t want to switch my ap anymore. Ive did this for years, Zyprexa was one of the best… I didn’t calm down with the other aps.
I mean, you say being too low is the reason your meds aren’t working? That’s not how meds work I don’t think. I think you need to sit down with your pdoc and tell him all of your symptoms, every last one, so that he will know what to prescribe.
Aren’t some of the schizophrenics with fears like mines? I was the type of want to hide in the wardrobe only when seeing people… Some social anxiety, yes, but my pdoc was saying that I cant think, cause I have mostly paranoid thoughts, yeap… Fearfull feeling of the madness too, feeling of some danger like my death and stuff like this.
I am on Depakote already for my mood. My mood is relatively positive now. I think its the paranoia which consumes me still… And a bit of the negatives.
sorry to be annoying, circle. I guess I need to keep this dosage, yeap, winterblues is right. I am on this path since a year, I should wait a bit, cause was ill for too long.
I don’t know… If you think you’re sz, that’s fine by me. You’re not doing anything wrong, therefore it’s not my business and it’s not my problem. My concern is that you have an untreated anxiety or mood disorder that’s causing you problems. If these AP’s alone were able to solve this problem, they’d be closer to solving the problem by now. Obviously, somewhere in your treatment plan, you need more help than you’re getting. However, part of that falls on you. You have to be honest about all of your symptoms, even those which aren’t symptoms of schizophrenia.
You’re not being annoying at all. You’re just asking questions, which is good. It doesn’t seem to me that you’re getting the right treatment and that’s what I’m trying to get you to see.
. But maybe whatever this…
. Well, unfortunately I am ill. I was very ill too for very long time…