No! Keep posting here @Sardonic. You are diagnosed sza depressive type. You belong here @Sardonic. Your mom is not a pdoc. She cannot diagnose you. She cannot tell you that you have bipolar disorder. And she should NOT be picking and choosing which meds you should take. That is very, very dangerous. Please tell your pdoc what she is doing please?
Are you a minor, @Sardonic?
I am 19 years old. I just graduated high school (it took me 5 years instead of 4). I am still dependent on my mom. I cannot go to college yet, as I would probably crash and burn. My mom got the pdoc to prescribe lithium by telling them I have mood swings, but she gave me left over topomax or nothing for about a week. Now she gives me 1/2 of the prescribed lithium, 1/3 of the prescribed zoloft, and all of the haldol.
My mom says if I get my mood symptoms under control then my psychosis will go away. My problem with that is that I remember my first paranoid delusion, during which I had no mood symptoms. My mom says I am manic now which may or may not be true, and everyone says Iām having psychotic symptoms now. I thought mania included lack of sleep and inflated mood, impulsivity, etc. I have none of these things. I am either depressed or I feel like I did before I even had severe OCD symptoms which made me depressed.
That sounds dangerous and harmful.
Why canāt you call your pdoc yourself? You are at adult age. Tell your pdoc what your mom is doing (messing around with your medication dosages). What sheās doing could be dangerous @Sardonic.
I cannot drive, so my mom takes me to my appointments and no longer trusts me to have them by myself. People on this OCD chat room I frequent convinced me to tell a pdoc what I was experiencing. I did and the pdoc recommended I go to the hospital. My mom was livid and now she comes into every appointment. @SkinnyMe
Thank you @Sardonic.
If you live in the US and are on Medicaid, the insurance may pay for medical rides. I can even use companies that do commercial work, due to my location.
I mean, Iām still on my momās insurance. I donāt know how to become more independent. Really I donāt even know if I can or should.
Thatās a tough decision to make, but you really should be taking your meds as your doctor prescribes them, particularly if you are having psychotic symptoms.
I donāt know how to get through this life. I feel like Iām living in two worlds and now my mom is playing with my meds and I have to stop her. Why should I trust anyone anyways? Why donāt I just stop. Theyāre just medicating me to get rid of my theories which were good and NOT psychotic.
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