I don’t know how it is for other people, but a lot of the time after really bad times I feel like I can’t go out of the house or be around anyone. I feel so ashamed about my behaviour etc, even though I know it’s not really my fault. I feel embarrassed and like I can’t go anywhere. Paranoia and thought broadcasting makes this worse, makes it feels like everyone “knows” I’m sick and knows about my behaviour and I can’t stand to face anyone. Can’t even talk to my friends because just so ashamed of myself. Going through this again right now and finding it really debilitating. Does anyone else find this?
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I feel ashamed sometimes too but you have to crack on
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When I got diagnosed I thought I’m a monster and felt ashamed. Welcome to this forum if you’re new 
Edit: I thought not felt sorry… Edit: I was right first time lols
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I live like a hermit 90% of the time because I can’t stand the way I spend a hell of a lot of time mentally torturing myself over the things I say and do when I have any social contact. All my friends and family are really decent, understanding people, but I am always so aware of my mistakes - one thing I can say is that I probably spend a lot more time thinking over and punishing myself for these mistakes than anybody else does. Knowing that logically doesn’t help me much though. It’s a horrible thing to have so much self-criticism.
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Thanks, just joined this past weekend 
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You’re right to describe it as torture. So hard when you can’t stop picking yourself apart. Sorry that you go through this too.
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Hey but take a look at my previous post, I feel ashamed now haha. You’re not the only one
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Which part of your behavior are you ashamed of? You say you consider it ‘not your fault’
Well then it’s nice to feel that way in company, for a change lol ️
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Sometimes I feel like it’s not my fault, because I know I’m ill. But then a lot of other times I feel really guilty. When I’m paranoid or having mood symptoms or psychosis, how I act towards people is very different to how I usually would act. Get scared people will think I’m a bad person or strange or something or they won’t want to be around me.
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