Do you feel shame because of sz? Because of having it general? Because of past behaviors/episodes?
I was just recalling some things I did while very paranoid. I sent some baaaaad text messages to family. I didn’t see it then but now that I’m a little better I see how bizarre they were. I guess I’m just ashamed.
Yes, I’m ashamed that I was violent.
And said bad things.
I want to try and make up for the damage I did.
No. It’s not my fault I have it and I have thrived in spite of it. I’m proud of that.
no i dont. i probably dont remember most of it. but i see no point in thinking about it or feeling guilty.
No, I see no reason to feel shame for having a mental disorder.
The times that I acted inappropriately was as if I was a schizophrenic having a psychotic episode. Hmm, maybe that’s because I was a schizophrenic having a psychotic episode.
There’s enough stigma in the world without me stigmatizing myself.
How do I not stigmatize myself? I really beat myself up because in law family has given me a rough time in the past (not always, but I remember the times they do. They just don’t get it.) So I feel shame.
I feel more ashamed of my parents for not stepping up to the plate with love and support. They just left it all up to the therapists who really didn’t know shitt.
@anon90992146, I feel its not helpful if they non stop shame u. U are trying all u can to prevent relapse risk. That’s all u can do…
It’s nothing to ruminate over
Just wen the topic comes up, I do feel upset about wat I did.
I think the first step is to accept that you have schizophrenia, a mental disorder. Then you can do things such as see a psychiatrist, take meds, educate yourself about schizophrenia, maybe join a support group. You’re already on an online support group. All of these things are going to increase your self-esteem.
I know this is easier said than done, but what they say is just their uneducated opinion.
I feel shame about being proud. I have a lot to be proud of. I am going to think of what is shaming my pride and work on it.
I don’t have shame because I was suffering from delusions etc that I had no control over - I was ill.
Sometimes I have flashbacks and that causes me to cringe and feel the horror, but it passes.
I feel no shame for having this disability, it is completely out of my control. I am proud that I keep going in spite of it!
No shame from the first 2 1/2 years of psychosis. I guess some stuff I said was embarrassing but hey, what can I say? I believed that crap at the time. A little embarrassed about freaking out over the neighbors, my family probably thought I was halfway sane until I started ranting about neighbors starting 15 years ago and blew everything out of proportion.
I cringe when thinking about some of the things I said and believed.
But now I’m in a better headspace and also proud about that.
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