I just keep thinking of the sz who thought he would get murdered and he did. I’m worried that my delusion will come true. I’m accepting that the clone delusion is just that but still am not over the other one.
It’s hard living and staying put with as serious of a threat I am facing even though others say it isn’t true. The gravity of it makes it still very bothersome. It’s all I think about all day.
And the fact I didn’t run away to create a life where these things were less likely to happen makes me feel worse.