Idk if my 4 suicide attempts were from sz or depression. Once at 18 y.o. I really wanted to die so drove my parents car to the maximum 200kmh in a snowstorm and ice made the car flip twice. I broke the window and got out. Police said I am very lucky to not die, I lied by saying I was at 120kmh.
At 20 y.o. I was tired of voices telling me I am God and to prove them I am God I swallowed a whole Tylenol bottle, vomitted, I wanted to die and was at home. My parents came home and forced me to go to the emergency, they injected me with an antidote to clean my liver bcz Drs said I would be dead from liver failure if my parents brought me late.
Are those suicide attempts from depression or schizophrenia? Do I need antidepressants?
im not sure but just know your life is worth it. you will find a way to live again.
Id say from 2014-2019 i had a lot of suicidal thoughts, tons of plans so itd be accident.
id do a lot of reckless things as well because i just did not care of the consequence.
actually only like 6 months ago i got a prescription for 30 zopiclone pills, id never tried sleeping pills before.
that night i took one , then another, then i dont remember doing it but i took them all. i didnt die but i was a bit messed up for a week.
that was the last time i kept thinking that way.
now my passion for living is very slowly coming back. takes work.
when i was in psychosis and working. everyday when id be working on a roof cleaning gutters at the edge of a 30ft drop, voices would just be screaming at me to jump off the roof. that sucked. but persevered and just kept working everyday.
I overdosed on lithium. A friend took me to the hospital. I passed out and have very little memory of it. They kept injecting something/antidote into my belly. I was in the regular hospital for a week and 7 weeks in the psych hospital.
One fine day, sunny day, voices told me to die. So I took 13 benzos. I thought that even 1 of them would make me like a zombie, how much more the 13. I vomited, and I was fine. I didn’t succeed, fortunately
Hi @Aziz and others who have had these experiences, just want to say I’m glad you’re still around .
I had a few attempts but they weren’t mood-related; the voices were the ones wanting me to end it.
On three occasions, I took pills. I overdosed on Trazedone twice and the third time I emptied an entire bottle of Zyprexa.
The Zyprexa sent me to the emergency room, where I slept for about a day and a half. Then I was brought to the psych ward at the hospital where I stayed for 5 days.
I’m so glad I made it through that strange time and got put on effective meds… It does get better
Hey @Schztuna, for me it was also the voices but of course the voices affected my mood too so I guess you can say it was a combination of both.
I took nytols the strong ones.
Some time after I started working in a skyscraper. It was all glass. I remember when I was walking near the glass windows or cleaning the glass I felt this weird nudge to smash through it. I was working near the top floor.
It was one reason I had to leave that job.
That I don’t know what it was it felt more like an intrusive thing. Very weird
You very could have depression as well as sz. I do. It is possible the attempts could be from either or. However, please know that your life is unique and special. I understand the wish to die. I’ve been there too. If you are suicidal, please see your pdoc. Go to hospital if you feel unsafe.
I mean to say that my suicidal attempt was due to pure schizophrenia not depression. I was not feeling bad at the time, I was feeling well, ion the contrary
I’ve tried to kill myself a good number of times. Sometimes it’s in response to a auditory hallucination commanding me to take my pills and then I let someone know I took the pills and went to the emergency room and was given charcoal to deactivate the drug. I would say that’s due to sz. Sometimes it’s in response to life’s stress and I don’t want to live anymore so I take a bottle of pills and don’t tell anyone but they notice me acting strangely and call 911. I would say that’s due to depression. So in your case you have to think about the voices that were going on in your head at the time and what you were thinking too and then decide which you think it is. It sort of sounds like one of each to me.
Antidepressants may or may not help you. It sounds like you are depressed from your symptoms. In which case getting your psychosis under control is what is going to help you stop being depressed. Antidepressants will not make you happy if your life situation is bad; they allow you to feel happiness if your life situation is good if you can’t do so.
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