I got very drunk a few weeks ago with my sister.
she has been having a breakdown with depression and elements of continuing psychosis for 5 years
She confirmed all my fears about her beliefs and I gave in and gave her my permission to let go of life.
She thanked me
She has extreme self injury problems,
severe long long lasting alcoholism and uses dope and other drugs
She has been talking about killing herself for 5 years
i said can’t you at least wait for mum
she said that could be another 15 years
she has discussed methods - walking into the sea weighted down
she has set up a will where i get half of what she has
she has told me that if she dies i will have no money worries and that all our lives would be better
she will not see a gp for anything
will not take a psychiatric pill for anything
has no friends at all
has been around the block with AA and NA and i believe she will never do meetings she really really hates the system
she will not see a pscych nurse
she talks about her history of abuse a lot
had childhood abuse trauma
she has been talking about going around sleeping with people when she goes travelling this month
and returning pregnant
a sure sign of talking about the future - in other words having some hope which can happen once someone makes their mind up
she just bought a toy breed dog puppy for my mum and has been living with her for the 5 years of her breakdown
I think she sees no way out
I don’t think a few pills will solve this
I have tried every single thing i can think of to try to help
police
aa
mental health services
she is not willing to get help and here in the uk the push is for outpatient care where she would see a team up to 10 mins once a day to make sure she swallows a pill
that is not enough
more to the point she absolutely refuses