I think my sister will kill herself while she is abroad travelling
she has put all her stuff neatly, she has made plans like making a will
looking on the internet for the least scary ways to die
as well as being suicidal intensely delusional, alcoholic and depressed mostly in one room for five years
she thinks we will be better off without her again.
she has never tried to get help from friends, peer support groups, psych teams, GP’s therapists
she has left us surrounded with flowers in pots and said goodbye to me when she left to go travelling in a way that makes me suspect i won’'t see her. I got a phone call from her the next day saying to take care of mum. (mum was hit by a car 11 weeks ago as a pedestrian)
She has gone to a week long psychedelic festival (boom) in portugal
with vague plans to do the Camino pilgrimage in france and northern spain but would have to cycle it because of bad feet
She plans to be away for 4 months and has planned accordingly
suicidal people make plans and stuff when they are a little better for a while
she has been taking care of mum 24/7 and a new puppy for the last 9 weeks and did most of the full time care… i have been leaving her at night sometimes
■■■■ i am not going to spend another night apart from her She begged me not to leave her alone at night. The physiotherapist said she would be fine
screw my husband if he wants to complain about it
now have to think how to backtrack leaving her alone
the police came to see mum and I yesterday following a lot of emails and contact with a guy she has been given a restraining order not to contact because this bully has been inundated with abusive messages
she did not tell her side of the story at the trial just to get it over with
she has been obsessively back in touch with him for a few days
Try to stay in touch and be positive toward your sister. Pray for her and she will be okay. I think you should also take care of yourself though, are you taking medication at the moment?
I’m just going back to my regular medication regime right now because I have had some bad symptoms during a Switch to Abilify which isn’t working
Thanks Kev I thought about asking her if she thinks that mum would be a can’t night now… I’ve left her for about four or five nights in a row. Always taken care of the puppy her food and laundry et cetera
I think this would give me a clue as to her mental state without alerting her to Me being worried
I see what you’re going through… I get that you don’t want to burden your mother with it, just try to keep in mind that you might be paranoid. I think people caught up with drugs are sometimes tempted to depression but maybe she’s more in control of it that you realize. I’ve been depressed before and bombarded with ideas from the devil to harm myself, yet I know my character and that I would never actually do anything like that. Maybe your sister just needs some time away. She’s probably distraught about having her mother and sister sick and it’s really affecting her. When she has some time to relax get out in the sun be with friends etc she will be alright. I think naturally the drug thing will go away with time if she’s prayed for, and she’ll come home and everything will get back to normal. I think times are just difficult for you right now and you’re worried that you might lose your sister on top of all this and it may be becoming an obsessive thought. One thing you can b assured of is that God loves her and is watching over her no matter what. I will pray for your family. He’s going to heal your family and your mind gradually.