My sister is going travelling starting Friday
She has recently looked after my mum as her carer but that is the first thing that has got her out of a delusional psychotic alcoholic haze and out of bed for 5 years
We got drunk together
She is still considering suicide and has been suicidal for 5 years
I said to her please wait til Mum goes and she said that could be 15 years and asked my permission and I said she has it
And she thanked me
I think tomorrow could be the last time I see her
We both have already lost our schizophrenic sister age 25 tragically
I don’t think I’ve been this worried or sad
As today
I think I misrepresented the extent of her being suicidal
This is not a new thing I have known from the start
Detailing it feels very very disrespectful
I won’t include all details but it is overwhelming how much we have tried and how much she doesn’t Want any help
She recently bought a puppy for my mum that would be manageable for her
This is worrying because she is planning and she has been better than ever for the last five years in the past two months with looking after my mum
Being better and making big plans Are two of the biggest warning signs for suicide they are real red flags
She has had a chance to put her affairs in order by leaving the country
saying crazy things like she will come home pregnant
She made a will said we’d be better off without her
And I’m schizophrenic
And I have been killing myself slowly since a young age
I’ve been worried sick about my siblings from age about 7 +
3 girls 3 problem children
I’m so sorry to hear about this @Thanna. The one thing you have to consider here is: what is within your power and what is not? Your sister’s actions are not within your power, all you can do is try and positively influence as best you can with the energy you have. I prey that this works out. Try not to fret over the outcome - just do the best you can and that’s all you can do.
No disrespect intended @Thanna, I think you are OK. But you are enabling her-sending the wrong message by drinking with her. I know it’s more complicated than that but this comes from the point of view of someone who had attended over a 1000 AA, CA, and NA meetings.