I am really jealous for people which are already independent at my age. I mean, those who left their parents, have good, stable careers, maybe even family.
Though, I believe things for me changed as I first became psychotic. I really believe that I am less capable of things than I was before. ((Just quite not sure whether it’s psychotic symptoms or I just became dumb))
Like, I just feel a bit sad for the fact that I canmot handle things as good as before. I am almost 24, still very childish, not independent, etc. I see my past classmates becoming more and more successful, where I am standing at the very same point in my life.
Sorry for this negativity… just feel quite sad today
You’re right, @Montezuma
And your words made me feel better… I can only say thank you. Comparison is something I should definitely eliminate from my thoughts.
Just, I feel one of the biggest problems in my life is that I am an idealistic. I remember myself when I was very brave, active and a leader. I was very successful kid. Now I feel a bit like… trash you know. Something is not as it should be.
I know acceptance is a key, and I should reaaaally accept the way it is… but it’s so freaking hard to do this!
I know it’s hard. And our society places so much demands and expectations on us. But some of us are probably meant to be socialist artist or something lol. I try not to get too hung up on the “rat race.”
I’m sure everyone I knew from school is doing better than I am. Sometimes I wish I had a good job, a nice apartment and car and a girlfriend but it’s not my fault I got sick in 2013. There’s nothing I could do about it. I went through ten years of hell. I’m doing better this year but I don’t know how long that will last since there’s no cure for schizophrenia.
This is the most sad part for me, personally.
It would be amazing if the magic pill existed…
Like, you take it and boom- everything disappears and you feel great, again.
Wish you the best, @anon21675834
I believe knowing that you cannot stop meds can be heartbreaking at the beginning. But they really save us… meds gives us a possibility to live a life…
I am 30. And I still think am not as mature as people my age.
You have time in your hands. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Just keep moving forward. This is what I regret most recently. If I had just kept taking small steps on specific goals might have had something going for me.
Im 35 and work in a restaurant… but its over a decade since my first break and I live, for the most part, without needing to acknowledge the spectre of my mental illness.
But I’m still 35 and working in a restaurant… I get down about it. Wondering why/if this is all I will amount to…
Then I remember I was basically a dead man in a body for 3 to 5 years.
It not something 98% of people can understand.
Be patient with yourself and life… the hustle is for hustlers and their full of sh** anyways
