I was talking to a friend earlier and they said something that kind of sent me spiraling and not being sure what’s real and what’s not. I’m still kind of ■■■■■■ up about it and I’m not sure what to do.
I think I have an appointment with my pdoc on Friday. Or maybe that’s my therapist? I don’t actually know. I’m not even really sure that phonecall really happened? I can’t seem to find the record of it, but maybe I’m remembering it wrong?
I think you’re right. This specific feeling is new to me. Usually I’m either pretty far gone or not enough to need this confused. But like, I cant tell. Everything is wobbly
Talked to my partner last night and they said I’ve been struggling for a week or more, which I guess I didn’t really realize. Not that that’s surprising, but I’m a bit more concerned I guess.
I just want to go back to sleep and not exist for awhile.
I don’t know. Maybe not. I’ve been pushing myself pretty hard to keep up with little LED and keep her happy. It’s causing a lot of pain, service what’s kind of ■■■■■ me up mentally
She starts first grade tomorrow. She doesn’t need me all the time, but she’s very needy and anxious. We’re pretty certain she’s autistic (since both her parents are), but that eval isn’t for another month or two. Not that it’ll really change anything. But yeah. Once she goes back to school I’ll be able to just rest and not exist for almost 8 hours a day.