Hey everyone, it’s been a while. Hope all of you are well.
Feeling pretty hopeless tonight, even though as far as my symptoms go they’re no where near as bad as they used to be. Pretty sure I posted on here a couple months ago they came to the conclusion I have Dissociative Identity Disorder, not schizoaffective.
Anyways, just feeling really lonely. Yesterday was my birthday, and I was basically ignored like I am everyday. I’m back working full time, so I worked 12 hours before I came home, and no one really spoke to me other than the usual “hey” and “happy birthday.” Starting to feel like a waste of space and oxygen again. I know I’m a background character in everyone I know personally’s life. I’m starting to lose my fight again, and just wish I was special to someone. My two online friends havent really had time for me, so I’ve basically been going to work, coming home and eating supper, then sleeping. Get up at 5am and do it all over again.
I thought work would make me happy, but it hasn’t. Now instead of being broke and unhappy, I’m just making ends meet while remaining unhappy. Trying to hold onto the hope that things will turn around.