After spending all of yesterday in the flat nursing a water infection I went to the bar across the street today. Spent 3 hours there talking to two guys I know from this area. Was fun.
I kinda feel less guilty about just sitting listening to music on my own if I have tried socialising that day.
three hours of solid talk is probably all most people need. it’s good that you can do that. a conversation in public that lasts more than five minutes is still a rarity for me. my priorities are changing and i’m making more effort to get out, more than grocery stores or errands. i feel exceptionally comfortable once the conversation gets going, even more so than in my early twenties before i went crazy. complete surprise. i’m not saying everyone likes me, i’m just saying the talk itself feels very natural.
I was going to bars alone this past summer during a break with self, totally embarassed myself at the only places I’d go to if I could get up the nerve to go out on my own. Just wasn’t myself and would order too many kinds of drinks or was too open about things. I miss the day’s when it was just me and my friend sara meeting at a local pub for drinks and just when we were becoming the odd regulars…boyfriend and social circle multiplies times ten which I couldn’t deal with.
I’d love to show back up at the local dive and just drink cheap beers and not say a word, just watch people sing kereoke and drink. But I feel too embarrassed still.
That’s some amazing progress! Glad you got out of the house! Very happy for you James 
Spent 3 hours there talking to two guys I know from this area.
That’s quite good going…