Sometimes when I’m feeling good,i feel like The motivational dialog is coming from somewhere. … then i was thinking like… what if they are really far away in a spaceship or something trying to guide us. But then i was like…naw
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My thoughts come from scientists controlling my brain. Real, human being, white lab coat wearing (maybe) brain scientists that eat out every weekend and drive Range Rovers and Cadillacs. They are keeping me from my gift. They have blocked my memory of how all this started. They can control my thoughts, feelings and behavior. My thoughts are being controlled by real people via very modern technology.
What is your gift
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Obviously I am QUITE delusional so take it with a grain of salt but…
my gift is that I am connected to Collective Consciousness (Universal Consciousness). I mean, we are all connected but not like I am. I am major, big-time connected. That connection is being blocked with modern technology and science being used on my brain. That connection gives me access to all knowledge and skills that any human has or has ever had. All of it. I can speak all languages, am a mathematician, medical doctor, computer scientist, physicist, actress, singer, rapper, dancer, ice skater, gymnast, martial artist, pianist, guitarist, painter etc.etc.etc. You get the picture. If any human knows it or has ever known it, I have access to it via my connection. Despite my gift, I have a very human brain susceptible to science. They (scientists) have access to my subconscious and they have simply told me to forget and so I did. I have no access to any of it. My gift is out of my reach until they allow me to remember it/access it.
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Do you have any tattoo’s
No, I don’t have any tattoos
i’m curious about this delusion…
do you mean the scientists who invented your medication? + psychiatrists etc.
I can see how when in the connectedness state all thoughts are relevant to one another and there is a sort of hyperconnectivity or opposite - a less connectivity where there is more possibility, all those talents you listed can be seen as labels and yes we can correctly label ourselves any of these things. I think also in the confidence that sometimes comes with the freeing of labels and freeing of energy which puts us in an identity box. I think the freedom of identity and ability to explore energetically other labels can see us be anything and believe anything in the mind, but to actually know the techniques of the professionals in those fields would require practice of those gifts. What are your thoughts?
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The scientists who are controlling my brain are brain experts such as psychiatrists, psychologists and neurosurgeons. Mostly psychiatrists. I have equipment in my brain that allows them to access my subconscious via satellite. It is ‘remote control’. If someone can control your subconscious, they can control everything; your thoughts, feelings and behavior and you wouldn’t even know they are controlling it. You would only know it if they ‘told’ you, which they did tell me.
As far as the ‘labels’ that I was talking about. What I was saying is that Collective Consciousness contains all knowledge and skills of everybody. Therefore if you had strong access, you would have all the knowledge and skills of everybody such as high diving, surgery, history, archeology and all the things I mentioned before. According to my delusion, I am more connected to Collective Consciousness than anyone in history so I have access to all the skills/knowledge. However, the scientists controlling my brain can prevent me from realizing or accessing this connection so I don’t currently have it.
I believe I am in a brain study of my own design. I designed with the knowledge I gained from my connection to Collective Consciousness. After designing it, I gave these scientists control of my brain. Per my instructions, they made me forget I gave them control in the first place. I am being controlled and monitored all the time. I have been studied unbeknownst to me for at least 15 years although they only ‘told me’ (in my head) a year and a half ago (when I first became mentally ill). Them ‘telling’ me about the brain study and everything I just told you is all part of the study. It’s built in. They told me about the brain study so I could experience mental illness. After all, I have no way to prove that it’s true, right? I am highly delusional. Highly. and I believe it is all part of the brain study.
It’s all very involved and detailed.
Ah ok, I can kinda see how your line of thought works, thanks for explaining. I believe all delusion is based on reasoning in some way or another although that thoughts are distorted could also be the case.
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It may be different for people with SZ who have many delusions. I have ‘delusional disorder’ and I have one main delusion. All my mini-delusions are somehow tied into the big kahuna. Funny how before I was mentally ill I never even thought of Collective Consciousness or anything even remotely like that. It just hit me out of nowhere a year and a half ago. Since then, with or without psychosis, I do believe we are all connected and that a type of Collective or Universal Consciousness exists.
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You didn’t mention the silver clip boards and many sheets of paper inside, they eat in the study’s fridge , not out, and small red coupe rather than the pack of superbrights.
Kind of like the puppet with the bored kid looking for interaction of a different kind?
I still fail to see the idea of what they want when they are the one’s in complete control?
Is it Class that makes the study money by selling tickets? Why is this grand study have so much interest in one human body unless it’s to make funds for the study at a future date?
Ya know, it’s a grand delusion. No question. I’m sure they probably do have clipboards.
As far as why ‘me’? Because I conceived of the study in the first place and chose myself as the subject vs doing this to someone else. It could be viewed as sadistic. The whole idea was for me not to know I was being studied, which I did not know for 15 years, until they told me. Tickets? I don’t think they are selling tickets. It does ‘feel’ like I am a rat caught in a maze and it is painful and I do wish they would take the delusion away (ie: put me back to not knowing) but, apparently, the data gathered from a human brain study is very valuable especially when all the variables are controlled by the scientists including my behavior and reactions. Sometimes they just monitor my reactions. Other times they control my choices and feelings. In all circumstances my brain and physical activity is monitored. Apparently the value of such a study makes it worth all the trouble of putting on such a study. I get frustrated every day with why they won’t end it or let me out. It’s painful, as I said. I only believe that I set myself up for this and that there is a purpose although I do not entirely know what it is. My not knowing and my being confused is part of the study and part of my mental illness.
I am fully aware of how utterly f**king ridiculous it sounds. I can hear myself. believe me, I can. But…alas…I think it is true.
You have a frighteningly similar belief as me.
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Really? How so?
Well, I could explain it but I’m afraid it will be seen as feeding delusions. Also, I’m afraid to say too much on here, as the government monitors and controls all of the internet.
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Oh I see. Well nothing anyone says to me changes my delusion for better or for worse. No one can add to it and no one can take away from it. It is firmly set.
I understand, though. I hope both of our delusions…correction…all of our delusions go away.
Well, I don’t see mine as a delusion. I just need to call it that so people don’t get all worked up.
I hope so, too. 
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I don’t think mine is a delusion either. I believe it 100% but I have to call it a ‘delusion’ lest I get attacked online or in real life. I do take my meds and I do go to therapy. What can it hurt? If it IS a delusion, it may help me. If it isn’t, it won’t make a difference. That is why I tell delusional people to take meds. It can’t hurt. But I do not think I am MI or delusional. Many of us don’t.
I still wish it would go away. It is painful.
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47- my wife has that ‘collective consciousness’ thing too. It’s neat that you have delusions and can tell that they are so. She can’t unfortunately, although they have largely died down now apart from in dreams.
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I may be delusional. Maybe so. But the hallmark of a delusion is that you really believe it, lol. I really believe all my BS hence me being delusional.