i find refuge here where there are plenty of others with sz.
sometimes I wish I could walk out somehow on the world of the normal and hide somewhere in the shelter of others with sz only.
anybody else?
judy
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When I go places I return and hide out in my apt. This place is a little threatening to me, also. Where I live is comforting for me.
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I used to feel that way then I met some people with sz dxs and well they weren’t quite as functional as the ones on here.
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I wish I could hide from the voices and have one week with no voices. I like this site but when I was in the psych ward, some others with schz were running around having trouble getting their pants on…this was the mild level psych ward…to think the doctors wanted to put me on the more severe psych ward but my mom begged the doctors no. Not all schz are blessed as us to be aware of the sickness and function everyday like bathe or put on our clothes. It’s a struggle but I might as well stick around to see what the end is gonna bring.
This is a typical ego defense. Old school psychologists, particularly Gordon Allport knew all about how we like to stick to our ingroup. In my opinion it’s best to identify with the others like you and not defend your ego by hating them and trying to identify as normal. I mean why am I on this site talking to other persons with schizophrenia?
A whole list of psychological jargon.
Just read chapter nine of The Nature of Prejudice. I’m intropunitive which means I take my ■■■■out on myself for the most part. It’s healthier.
Just don’t completely reject and hate the normies. They’re just not capable of imagining what we experience. Let them do their thing, but don’t let them ■■■■with you. You do you. I do me every day and I don’t think twice, I don’t even think once, I just do my thing and the people who know me best understand the big picture behind me- the persona, the image, the behaviors, my past- it all makes sense under a looking glass.
Just don’t grow to hate normal people. Hate is a last resort survival mechanism. It’s like the red button, the switch you never flip. It’s there if you are going to die. That’s all it’s good for- keeping you alive. It’s a last resort.
The only hate I feel is for myself and when I’m off the deep end, psychotic, “them”. I really do get in that state of mind though. It’s called chronic psychosis for a reason. I usually recognize when I can’t control what I am thinking at all and do whatever I can to contain myself.
But really do your best not to be prejudiced towards normal people. Just know that you are stronger than most of them and carry on. Yeah, it sucks when they put us down. It sucks worse for them if you don’t even give a ■■■■no matter what they put you through because they can’t get off on hurting you.
And people think we’re all stupid.
Inspire some, intimidate the rest.
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