I have been trying to get over my “thing” about answering the phone. I usually don’t. It’s too much potential for surprise. But for the new year, I’ve been trying to answer it.
I’ve been asked out for coffee by a lass in my SZ group. The thing is… I admire her, but she makes me sad at the same time. Why did I answer the phone. I said I’d check my work and get back to her… Now I have to find a way out. I’m not up for the hate.
She joined up a bit a go and she’s getting better. She’s kicking this SZ and I’m really glad for her. Like many of people I’ve been reading about and a few I’ve met,; she would like to go into psych work to right the wrongs of therapist and pdocs she’s had to deal with.
I am very supportive of her. But lately she’s on this kick about hating “Normals” and if she goes into psych work… she doesn’t feel she should ever have to deal with “Normals”, and how much she doesn’t like “Normals”.
First… I’ve really never met a NORMAL. Sure, there are Non-Sz girls, but they have problems too… bipolar, ADD, ADHD, dyslexia, alcohol, drugs, cutting, PTSD, anorexia, on and on. Who is NORMAL?
Then I was just sitting there thinking… Ok, dividing the populous in just two groups of SZ and “normal”… If I’m in the middle of a true episode and I’m starting to crumble quickly you better be able to talk to my kid sis (who is a normal) If you can’t… then you are no help to me. If I come out of it and find that NO support or kindness was offered to my sis… the head of my crisis team…. I’m going to find a different doc ASAP. (been there, found a different doc ASAP, will never go to Evergreen health again)
Because my NORMAL kid sis is the one with the journal detailing my insurance information, my prescriptions, my allergy info, my basic medical information, blood type, my med mix, med reactions, my other doctors contact, my other emergency contacts, and on and on.
I’m just getting tired of all the “Normal” vs. Sz. Aren’t we all in this together? Why all the hate on the normals?
I for one, in this new year will drop try to drop my use of these labels…