James I struggle with being angry. As for the taking meds with food, that is to extend the half-life of the meds, not for tummy aches…Geodon has an 8 hour half life without food. That’s why I eat a high protein and carb meal before I take it, morning and night. It stays in your blood all day and all night when taken with a full meal, carbs protein and fat and at least 400kcal.
But yeah dude, I get pissed easily. I asked my coach about test boosters, he said “you’re 20 you dont need that ■■■■, you come in here and work hard on three tranquilizers, you have enough testosterone” and I talked to a guy with a mental illness in AA who lifts about test boosters and he told me the story about trying to pull the steering wheel off his car and basically said that mentally ill people dont need them! That and I cant remember what my psychiatrist said, but I can imagine it was NO.
Also, most of the guys who have records for their weight class (theres a big chart on the wall of my gym for who holds the highest ranks) are not on anything except creatine, whey protein and carbohydrate powerders, which are all safe for me, but the coach said creatine is overrated and mostly placebo affect.The coach is clean, he has a spartan helmet in his office, he for one isnt on steroids, he actually told me to just be spartan and eat a lot. Im already on whey protein and gatorade, but the people on the team all drink this super-gatorade crap, some super carbohydrate powder mixed with water, so Im gonna join the super-gatorade club. They all have these big clear bottles I imagine they all buy from the supplement shop that sponsors the gym, so im gonna buy one and write “psycho” on mine so they know its mine. They team all knows about my condition and meds. HAHAHA
But yeah, just try to find an outlet. If I go three days without lifting iron, I get horny, angry, restless, and just feel like a demon. I found the right outlet for my anger problems. Maybe you can find an outlet.
There is no option for me- I have always been an angry person and for good reasons, but I wont go on a monologue justifying my behavior. Starting at 10 I began exercising regularly, I had dumbbells and a treadmill and a beginners guide to lifting weights book from the 70’s my dad gave me. I went on to play baseball and had arms and legs by 14, I was the “badass” kid and a heavy hitter. I did fencing after that, was mediocre and quit, then got anorexic and did hours of cardio every day for 9 months. I recovered by lifting again, within 3 months i went form 113 to 150 and no body fat. I then joined a Krav Maga dojo and have a few belts, I was really good but had to quit due to hallucinating during drills when I just turned 19. I then became a total psychotic workout nut and was ripped like hell, then last summer I got on meds, quit drinking and joined this powerlifting gym and started lifting really heavy, got personal training in powerlifting in january by one of the top lifters on the team and just joined the gym’s organized team.
So yeah, outlets bro.
Before you punch a hole in the wall (ive done that twice, pictures cover up the holes)