Has anyone experienced someone forcing them to do all the stupid things being beamed into their head while also weakening their ability to resist? In addition to having all this garbage pumped into my head, it’s like there’s someone here constantly trying to force me to do it. And it keeps happening. And everywhere I go, every stupid thing every idiot says just keeps making it worse, and keeps repeating that this is who I am and that I’m the one doing this, and that all this garbage is coming from me. What did you do to have this end?
I’m losing it. Everyday my health deteriorates, everyday these idiots keep repeating how stupid and full of it I am, everyday I get dumber, everyday I get weaker, and my life just keeps getting worse. Everyday it’s more stupidity, and it all keeps happening. They keep repeating that I’m a homosexual (and homophobic), superficial, stupid, dishonest, illogical, rude, self-centered, sociopathic, and to blame for everything that’s happening to me. They are constantly trying to force me to list things out, swear, yell, make a fool out of myself, and run around like yelling at everyone and constantly yelling like the idiots they keep trying to say I am. They constantly keep saying that I’m the one putting everyone down to pretend that I’m better than everyone, that I’m the one that’s doing this to everyone, that I’m the one that’s full of it, that I’m the one that’s wrong, that I’m the one that doesn’t know what I’m doing, and everytime they say these stupid things, something happens to make it look like they are right and they don’t stop repeating it. Everyday, no matter what I’m doing or where I am, everything I see is constantly twisted until it can be used to say how right they are and that I’m exactly who they keep saying I am. Everytime something stupid is said about me, something magically happens to make it true. Every stupid thing that’s ever been said about me is magically becoming who I am. Everything that’s good about me is gone, and all that’s left is more garbage. They are constantly forcing in crap and trying to say that’s who I am. Everywhere I go, I get nothing pointed at me but more stupidity and all there is are more people saying it’s all true, and that it’s exactly who I am. I’m losing my mind. I can’t take this anymore. It’s been 4 years, and all I’ve heard is nothing but the same crap repeating over and over again. Everyday it’s just more stupidity, and everyday, I waste away and nothing but this garbage is left.
They constantly force me to react like a highly sensitive idiot to everything. They want everything to hurt my feelings. They are obsessed with the feelings thing, and with having everything hurt my feelings while constantly saying it’s because I’m heartless and don’t have any emotions and need to become more human. It’s just constant stupidity. They have an excuse for everything, but it’s stupid everytime. They take every stupid thing everyone has said about me and wants to say I am, and they use it to excuse themselves of all they are doing to me, and to try to twist things around to say it’s my fault and that I’m getting exactly what I deserve.
I don’t understand why this is happening to me, why nothing has worked, where all these ailments are coming from, why they keep trying to force me to do all this garbage, why they keep trying to say all these things about me, or why, no matter where I go, they just keep saying the same garbage. Everywhere I go it’s the same stupidity, and all they do is look for a way to twist around everything that’s happening until they can say it’s my fault or something I did to drag everything on even longer. No one cares about having any of this go away. Everywhere I go, they just keep looking for ways to make it worse, while constantly repeating that they are just trying to help. I’m going mad having this all repeated over and over again, and there’s nothing but more garbage entering my life. Every bad thing that can happen to me keeps happening, and all everyone keeps doing is looking for a way to make it worse while sinking further into the stupidity that I’m anything like what I’m being accused of and like I’m to blame for any of this.
I can’t breathe anymore. I can’t do simple things. Everyday, it’s just more of this garbage. I’m interrupted constantly no matter what i’m doing, and it’s just more garbage. Constant garbage. Constant garbage being pumped into my head constantly accusing me of things I didn’t do, accusing me of being things I’m not, saying I’m contradicting myself and am full of it, and getting in the way of whatever I’m trying to do.
Anytime it seems like anything good is about to happen, they start taking credit for it, then it all magically gets twisted around to being the same garbage while they constantly repeat it’s my fault. There’s actually not even anything good happening, they just like pointing at anything and saying it’s something good and that they did it, and that, “see, you’re imagining things, everyone is trying to help you” to once again accuse me of something stupid. Then they repeat it constantly trying to force me to say and believe something stupid so they can once again correct me like it’s anyone but them saying something stupid. Then they start shitting on whatever it is they kept repeating to ensure that nothing good can come of it and to ensure that there’ll continue to be nothing but ■■■■ in my life. Everything is unfair. Everything is them being jealous of something. Everything is me getting more than I deserve. Everything in my life should be ■■■■ according to these idiots, and they’ve ruined and shitted on everything to the point that there’s nothing else. Everything in my life is ■■■■, they think I’m still lucky, and everyday they try to add more.
I don’t know where this is all coming from, but everything that gets pumped into my head happens to me, no matter how stupid it is or how stupid it sounds, and all there is after is some idiot trying to say how right they are. They are obsessed with trying to say how right they are and with the fact that they can predict what’s about to happen, and with saying they are better than me, better than everyone, smarter than me, and that I’m an idiot, dumber than them, and should do all the stupid ■■■■ they say.
It’s all ■■■■■■■■. These are some of the dumbest shits I’ve had to be around, and now, no matter where I go, all I experience is their ■■■■. No matter where I am, whether I’m alone or not, no matter what I’m doing, all I hear constantly is all the stupid ■■■■ they say along with accusations that I’m the one doing it, that they are the ones that know what they are doing, that they are the victims here, and that I’m getting exactly what I deserve.
I’m losing myself. I’m losing who I am. And I’m being replaced with ■■■■■■■■. Everything about me is ■■■■. Everything I am now is ■■■■. It’s just constant ■■■■. Every rotten thing about all these idiots I’ve had to be around is being forced into me and I’m being twisted and shitted on as they force me to become this garbage. I don’t feel anything. I have no emotions. I’m dead inside. Nothing makes me happy. My sex drive is gone. They’ve shitted on my genitals. And even there it’s more ■■■■■■■■. I’m now no longer able to last more than a minute without ejaculating, everything is very sensitive to the point it’s painful and not very pleasurable, there’s the constant bullshitting from the idiots doing this to me (“hahaha, can’t last long,” “one minute man,” “you’ve been neutered” along with patronizing comments and all the other stupid shit you’d expect an idiot to say), my bladder is constantly full, I’m pissing myself, I have random UTIs, and on and on it goes.
I’m constantly being forced into a state where I’m having my feelings hurt. Everything hurts my feelings now. They are obsessed with having that happen and with repeating that phrase. Hurting my feelings. Just the sound of it annoys me. Nothing hurts my feelings. My feelings don’t get hurt, and all these idiots have tried to do is have it constantly happen, while saying this is who I am. They use everything as an excuse to say I’m garbage, and to force more ■■■■ into my life. It’s constant ■■■■■■■■. Everything they say is stupid. It’s always ■■■■. And my life is getting worse, and every stupid thing they are accusing me of is starting to look like and become more like who I am. Why should everything hurt my feelings? Who says these stupid things? It’s like my head is about to explode. It’s just constant ■■■■.
Medication doesn’t help.
They are also obsessed with having me constantly and blindly do what I’m told. They are obsessed with saying the dumbest things about me. They are obsessed with having me do the dumbest things. They never stop. It’s always on. Even when I’m asleep I start dreaming and it’s just more ■■■■■■■■. They are obsessed with constantly correcting everything I do. They are obsessed with then saying that this is who I am, and that this is what I do to everyone. They are constantly trying to take all the ■■■■ they do and say that it’s me, and that it’s what I do. They are constantly taking all the ■■■■ everyone else does and forcing it onto me accusing me of being the one doing it.
Nothing makes it go away. I have no ability to resist what they are forcing me to do. And everytime I go into the Psych Ward, they just try to force me to give in even more, and all they do is say the ■■■■■■■■ these idiots are saying is true, and that this is who I am. Everyday, they try to do exactly the same stupid ■■■■, insult me, insult my intelligence, call me stupid, call me a sociopathic dead emotionless ■■■■, and try to force me around like some ■■■■■■■ idiot. Do this. Do that. Do this now. Do what you’re told. Follow instructions. Take this. Go there. It’s always more ■■■■■■■■. Talk, talk, talk, talk, talk. They try to ■■■■■■■■ that everything is what will help, and that there’ll be no help if I don’t keep doing it, but it doesn’t do ■■■■. It’s just more ■■■■■■■■, and they just keep trying to say more of the dumbest ■■■■, then use it to force me to do more of the dumbest ■■■■.
I’m losing my mind dealing with this idiot. Everyday it’s just more bulllshit, and the more they ■■■■ on my life, the more they try to say it’s me. The more they blame me. The more ■■■■■■■■ there is that magically shows up that proves that all the stupid ■■■■ they are saying is true.
I don’t want to disclose anything. Nothing is anyone’s business. I don’t want to go around like an idiot constantly telling everyone everything about my life, especially these idiots, but that’s all they keep trying to force me to do.
EVERYTHING THEY TRY TO GET ME TO DO IS STUPID, ADDS MORE ■■■■ AND MISERY TO MY LIFE, AND NO ONE DOES ANYTHING BUT TRY TO MAKE IT WORSE!
WHERE THE ■■■■ AM I? WHAT KIND OF ■■■■■■■■ LIFE IS THIS? WHAT THE ■■■■ IS THIS ■■■■? WHY THE ■■■■ IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME? WHAT THE ■■■■ IS GOING ON HERE?
And then they force me to write this ■■■■ out. Constantly. And it’s always set up so that it won’t do ■■■■. Everything they force me to do leads to more ■■■■■■■■. There’s never anything else. It’s always just more ■■■■■■■■.
They like forcing me to read the news. Everything is an addiction. Everything it’s like I’m some crack addict and can’t get enough, but I can’t stand doing any of this. Everyday they force me to read the news then try to blame everything that’s happening on me. Everyday they try to use that ■■■■■■■■ to ■■■■ on my life even more, accuse me of more ■■■■■■■■, say how right they are, and say that I’m getting exactly what I deserve and that I’m the ■■■■ they keep saying I am. Everything they do shits on my life even more.
WHY CAN’T I FIND ANY HELP? WHY ARE THEY OBSESSED WITH HAVING ME LOOK FOR HELP? WHY WON’T THEY LEAVE ME ALONE?
I’m always miserable.
I keep getting forced around in circles and nothing is happening except my life going straight to ■■■■. And it’s not ending. And not only is it not ending, the ■■■■ that did this to me is getting away with all of it, and I’m being accused of being the one that did it while the other idiots say no one did this to me and that I did it to myself.
I don’t know what to do. It’s always just more ■■■■■■■■. I don’t want to turn to anyone. I want to be left alone. But even then, it’s just more ■■■■■■■■. In everything that happens, they try to rip my life away from me and replace it with some garbage, while saying this is exactly what I deserve and while saying this is what I said I wanted. Everything that happens is another ■■■■■■■■ excuse to accuse me of something. I’m constantly being accused of the dumbest ■■■■. Everything they say is stupid, and all they do afterward is try to ■■■■■■■■ about how right they are, and that I’m exactly the ■■■■ I’m accused of being.
I don’t think anyone knows what to do. I don’t think it matters. I think if anyone knew how to make this go away, they’d just use it as another excuse to ■■■■ on my life even more. They’ll do anything to have my life get worse and to take all their ■■■■ out on me.
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It’s just constant stupidity. And everyday I become more like the ■■■■ they constantly accuse me of being.