can relate and sympathise with you
you are not well right now but you will be if you seek help
hang in there
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Sasha-Hope you are doing better!!! You can completely leave work if you want to!! Go home and do some drawing. Call K. You are not alone-we all love you.
Did you ever find a doctor?peace to you…
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I used to see consultants staring at their screens, now I see they were probably delusional… never had any idea that’s what it was… at one point, a guy next to me, fell over off his chair, hit his head and had convulsions. complained his dr wife had given him pain meds for his cold, cumedine (sp?) now I wonder. we got paid $140 an hour to our pimps and he didn’t want to take a sick day, we were all making six figures.
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i hope everything worked out for you and you are feeling better today.
take care
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I have a doctor appointment on the 23rd.
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Yesterday I was feeling like I could read my co-workers minds and that they wanted to kill me. Not the voices.
The trauma from rape keeps seeping into my episodes… it seems that is the straw that causes me to loose it most times. I can handle being ripped to pieces, or killed, or hurt, or terrorized in many ways but when the rape stuff comes up again I loose it…
The demons will pick on traumas and try and make you believe other people are actually thinking it about you. It’s their type of trickery to make people fight and distrust each other. It’s so easy for them because many people are untrustworthy.
A huge mistake happens when people think its all entirely in the mind without the possibility of an external entity. In such cases when its an external entity, it has to be dealt with as such. Nothing else will work.
I have no idea if its a demon doing that to you or just the trauma alone.
I woke up this morning and 2 words popped in my head, not a voice, but wasn’t me either. I immediately said “get out of here you filthy demon!” with the authority of Jesus, and a little help from angels…the words did not return… But I’ve also had years of very heavy experience dealing with the casting down of imaginations and every thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God.
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Glad you have a doctor at last!
Maybe you can also get into some therapy to help deal with past stuff?
Hope you are doing better today…
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Thank you @bridgecomet. I am doing better today.
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i hope you are getting strength from all the people that care about you …i am so happy you have a doctors appt…great news…i hope he/she can help you to start feelling better…you sure deserve all the help you can get…it seems you are having more than a tough day…hang tough
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You need the care of a psychiatrist, probably on an in patient basis.
Hey sasha I feel the same way. I think people out there hate me for my intrusive thoughts and that they want to kill me. I have been threatened many many times. All the time i feel unsafe and wonder if I will die of old age that is what i really want. It doesn’t matter what you look like or how you dress. You should dress for yourself. Not even me have pure thoughts all the time. You’re not dirty or disgusting.
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I hope things got better. I have those same paranoid thinking spells, this is why I can’t work. I can’t be around people constantly all day like that, it’s not good for me mentally nor is it good physically to be in all that tension. I was fortunate enough to get on disability so I can stay at home, but some days I hate it and wish I could just be like any other normal person and have a job. Then a little thing triggers my problems and I spiral out of control and I realize why I’m not working in the first place and I go back to being happy that I’m at home. While these things are in your mind I know how hard it is to ignore them. It’s hard to realize they are just thoughts in your head. That’s where Schizophrenia is, it’s the split from being in your head and what’s really happening around you and you not being able to determine the difference.
When I was working and I could control myself I would just focus extra hard on my work and do everything I could to ignore the people around me. I was there for a purpose, to get my job done and go home. When it got to the point where I couldn’t even do my job I had to quit. I would think these group of ladies were talking about me simply because they were whispering and looking in my direction. Or that they were purposely ignoring me, or leaving me out of their little circle. Then one day out of the blue they’d come up and invite me over with them, and it’d throw me off. That and the fact I was having severe panic attacks every night and wasn’t sleeping was enough to make me quit my job I had for 3 years.
I called my doctor when the first panic attacks started and we started adjusting my medications and eventually got me somewhat stabilized. I can be around people for a short period of time, but I can’t take surprises to much, and after about a half hour to an hour I really need to find a place where I can go a be alone for a few minutes, even if it’s hiding in the bathroom stall. I hope you’ve been able to work through these and got help.
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