I think most people with a diagnosis and in treatment have these problems to a degree. And it makes sense that it can only become worse with age. I’m heading down a path that I don’t want to go, I keep myself to myself. I find it difficult to go out care free when in treatment. I would talk more but this is a pro meds forum. As long as those share holders have what they want in life. Psychopaths? As if they exist. Oh the sarcasm 
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You will probably never be a social butterfly nor will I . But it takes a bit of practice, I personally don’t like social situations but I’m able to get by when i need to. I find a I’m OK with little contact but I think a little is needed to feel good about yourself. I would suggest starting out somewhere safe. Like a good church( not all of them dress up) or easier yet a support group like nami or others. I’ve been to support groups where people say they feel comfortable there and don’t in normal social situations. The people there have been through a lot and I have found them to be non judgmental. If nothing else it might break up the usual routine. There are some people that are just not thoughtful and we all have to deal with them. But it’s nice meeting the good people if only for a few words. I wish you well.
I think it would be hard to refuse a friendship with a man who has you at gunpoint 
Ha, you’re a funny guy. Take it easy.
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How do you go with simple interaction where a task might be performed or a basic short hey how are ya…?
I am so messed up in my brain and forget most of my education and it is so embaressing and ive been rideculed for it too.
I dont know the names of people and things , dont keep up with the news, cant remember basics one learnt at primary school etc.
This makes conversations difficult for me and makes me socially awkward more than i would be otherwise.
I may avoid socialising and isolate.
Strange cause im a really outgoing kind of spirit i think, really social.
But in person i have real difficulties with it and avoid it.
I went to dance lessons which was good cause no one really talked other than “hi” .
I felt to attacked and paranoid to continue though.Like was all of them against me alone.
I stopped enjoying it cause it felt like self defence not dance and i was even afraid.
Today I chatted with woman i agist of and we even had a coffee together.
I usually say no to coffee to avoid social awkwardness that could come from it but said yes as she is really lovely to have a chat with and one of few people i can have a chat with.
I think its different with her cause we talk about my horse and the horses and just whats going on with family etc but we do not talk about educated things or news etc
She has a disabled daughter so maybe shes picked up on me being disabled and avoids putting me on spot with complicated fancy talk.
Im so happy that i can chat with her and ive chatted briefly with others too.
Strange cause i think im a chatty spirit and even joke etc
But in person im %#^&*$
Some times i laugh out loud which can appear wierd and apparently i can look wierd too and ive been told its noticable.
But most awful and embaressing is when they are holding conversations about basic educational knowledge that everyone is expected to know and i cant remember and cant answer their questions and its clear i dont know or remember these simple things and my mind goes blanc and no words come to my mouth and i appear so dumb and some have used it against me to ask me repeatedly questions i cant answer and then publically humiliate me about it and its awful feeling.
I had specially 2 men who loved doing it.
I think they got a kick out of it because they hate me and were jealous of me.
Yes men have indeed been jealous of me too.
I love hanging out with my horse and talking with her.
I will miss her so much.
Cant beleive i would leave the best thing/one of best things to ever happen to me.
Im moving away from my horse to live with my boyfriend is the plan.
Interstate.
I will keep paying agistment for her and she will still be my horse but i will not see her very often anymore.
Some people are easier to be with perhaps.
Some people go better together.
Some people are sensitive and caring and including and if they notice that some one has social difficulties they be easy on and with them and might make easy going conversation etc while others see it as a weapon and use it against the person.
Maybe you could engage in a activity with people where you know you may not need to talk much but can still “hang out” doing the activity.
But there is the chance/risk they might start long conversations that are fancy or complicated etc.
Do you feel more comfortable around some people?
Are there any people you feel relaxed/comfortable with in person?
Are some types of people easier for you to be with?