I have to much free time and haven’t found fulfilling ways to spend my time yet, especially in winter when there is no yard work to be done. in the past I would drink 3 or 4 times a week and the calendar and seasons would progress at the blink of an eye. I don’t think I will go back to drinking but wonder what I will be doing this time next year.
I find I can only read and study for about 2 hours a day, and the internet no longer satisfies after all these years online. i’m getting into a rut. I would volunteer but I don’t really like driving or volunteering so that is out. at the moment im at loss for what to do.
I guess it’s a good thing that i’m finally not drinking my blues away, but truly sobriety has left a void in my life.
I have felt that way a lot over they years. I looked back at my life and just how much time was spent drinking and getting high. Like literally all day every day. And now i don’t do those things. It does leave a void that has to be filled with something, hopefully constructive. I currently spend a lot of time online but you said you’re burned out on that. I hope you figure out something to fill your void.
yeah I don’t know, maybe I will finally start to master the guitar with some tutelage. by myself I don’t have the ear to figure it out but with lessons I can improve.
also I don’t watch much television anymore either, I used to watch a bit of news but soured on that.
right now im thinking 3 hours study, 2 hours playing guitar, 2 hours working out, 2 hours eating, and 1 hour grooming. that leaves me with 5 free hours as I sleep about 9 hours a night. I guess I also clean about an hour a day so really it’s only 4 hours I have to find something to do. im not very artsy so that is out. what to do with my 4 free hours? sit in a chair and watch barges go up and down the river I guess.
yeah I could try some meditation. I think 30 minutes once a day is the max I would meditate. @far_cry0 used to say that meditation wasn’t good for schizophrenics. do you find it to be helpful? tai chi sounds interesting, im not big into stretching or yoga, but I do stretch my legs for 30 minutes before my run. it’s a chore to do so.
The people who have had reported problems from it are those that go to a silent retreat and such like.
Other people report that their voices get louder, but it is rare. It calms me tremendously, makes my thoughts more clear. I mix it up with holotropic breathing and get high from it too.
Start small, say 5 minutes and build it up. Over the course of a few weeks you may feel calmer inside. I certainly do, but I have been meditating for over 2 years now.
I may take some classes in the future but no time soon. maybe I could work part time, when it warms up i’ll have plenty of yard work to keep me busy so I think maybe i’ll just suffer some boredom during the winter months.
