I feel like my old self tonight. I’m sore from Krav Maga and I haven’t had a cig in twelve hours and feel fine. I actually feel good and more relaxed. I’ve decided that I need my old lifestyle back. My girlfriend is on board, she has a mental illness too, she’s going to yoga and we’re both quitting smoking.
I have about one fifth of the stamina I had at 17. My technique is still solid and my power is very good, (I’m pretty well built, I do intense weightlifting workouts) but I can hardly do drills without pausing to catch my breath. I used to never ever do that, period.
Oh well, taking the right steps I guess. I have been sacrificing my health for academia which is actually a great way to die at 55, so ■■■■ that. See article below for reference to that little factoid.
http://www.nimh.nih.gov/about/director/bio/publications/rethinking-schizophrenia.shtml