So embarassed and feelng suicidal

I just broadcasted to my boyfriends family details of us having sex. I feel disgusting, humiliated, and i’m spreading my discomfort around to everyone else in the town.

Please dont tell me this isnt real. It certainly is. Its the hive mind. I dont want to be apart of it and if I have to live a life with this in it I dont want to live anymore.

Are you on an antipsychotic ?

Its a form of self harm.

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Yes I have been on quite a few I am currently taking capalyta. Stopped the abilify injection and changed over because my doc didnt think it was working. Risperdol serequel zyprexa and abilify shot have not worked yet.

I hope you feel better soon, but nobody believes that this is real or that this could happen.

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I am a self harmer. Thank you for your comment because ive never put two what im broadcasting and that together.

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That’s a pity. Abilify worked for my thought broadcasting. I just got lucky.

I hope capalyta makes a difference.

Edit: thought broadcasting seems so real but it’s really not. It’s just your mind playing tricks on you basically.

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It has been going on for two years consistnely. All external voices. Seem to come in the direction of which they are. With their own thoughts and opinions. Telling me im a terrible listener because I cant stop thinking long enough to let them finish.

I was sexually abused as a child and now I sexualize the people I believe the voices are coming from. Its ruining my life.

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If you are feeling suicidal or having a mental health crisis, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.

You can also call a crisis intervention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries. You do not need to be actively suicidal to benefit from a crisis hotline.

International crisis hotlines:

Crisis hotlines in the U.S.:

https://www.thetrevorproject.org

More resources:

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