I’m so paranoid right now. I’m hallucinating, completely delusional at times, suicidal, and with no one to talk to about it professionally except my psychiatrist on Thursday.
I took 100mg of haldol because I wanted the hallucinations to stop and because, well, I wanted to end my life. I’m not depressed, it was just command hallucinations telling me to. Found out that it’s not lethal, thankfully, and is actually just the max dose.
Thursday I’m not playing games, I’m going to ask for the strongest antipsychotic there is.
If you are feeling suicidal or having a mental health crisis, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a crisis intervention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries. You do not need to be actively suicidal to benefit from a crisis hotline.
When i told my psychiatrist i was suicidal and stuff they said i was heading for hospitalization and i should stop working. So that wasnt very helpful for me.
Sounds like yours is based on command hallucinations though so that is probably more med treatable.