I wanted to be able to exercise safely, I am so unsteady on my feet and easily fall or twist my ankles while walking outside, this also counts for exercise classes because im so weak afterwards and have iniured myself on the way home. So my mum asked what I wanted to do and that is walk, I used to walk so much it was my escape, I live surrounded by hills and fields and I want to get back out there,before I became unwell I went backpacking with my dad twice a year and I miss being miles from anywhere with a tent. so maybe one day I will get back there, I also think I may run to let off steam, I get very angry at times because I won’t let myself let the emotions out it is entirely subconscious I physically can’t let go and it builds and I just shut down. I think running may be a quick burst which prevents the build up. So mum and me saved up and we now have a treadmill in our front room and I am really looking forward to using it. I can fall and I’ll be at home so even if I do hurt myself I’m not five miles away. I have put a photo of my great uncle up where Ill be facing, he was a judo champion and really fit, I was really close to him as a child, part of his estate has helped pay for my acupuncture training because he went from being a decorator to a shiatsu masseur midway through his life, he’d really support that but not my weight and lack of exercise, mum says he would be really proud and a motivator to me because im trying to change.
Do you guys like exercise? What do you do?
