this illness has made me so depressed i just filmed myself slashing… 
negative symptoms are so much i am going off meds tomorrow…
being psychotic will be a distraction…
promised myself a long time ago i would never hurt myself again but have failed…
I’m not gonna tell you what to do, but if you’re that depressed, won’t it get worse if you get off your meds? Being psychotic could make you a lot worse.
I think you should stay on them, and then contact whatever psychiatric nurse/doctor you have in your network.
It’s ok to admit needing help, and you shouldn’t stop fighting just because it’s easier.
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Can you contact your pdoc? Can you go to the ER to get your cuts bandaged and to let them know how depressed you are?
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hi, they are only superficial thus far…
not intending to kill myself - more if a release…
Thus far.
If you’ve already broken a promise to yourself about not doing it, what’s keeping it from spiralling out of control if you go off your meds and the symptoms get way worse?
Seek help while you’re in control, that’s my advice anyways.
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hi, off my meds the positive symptoms are far too distracting to do anything harmful to myself…
they may be worse but if it stops self harm…
thanks, i probably should, dont even know why i posted this…
last one tad bleeding, maybe i should ask for… its late at night and i am drunk… i dunno…
If you want to feel something try jogging or running until you are out of breath.
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yeah, i do excersize abit but doesnt last long…
sorry i dont intend to cause anyone distress - i should not have said anything…
Don’t say that, we want to be here for you.
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thanks man… i appreciate it !
Please go to hospital.
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@mexxem. Can you clean the cuts, apply some antibiotic ointment and apply a bandage to minimize the risk of infection?
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really ? … all i have done is feel suicidal and cut 3 superficial marks… domt people do this sort of stuff all the time ? i used to…
Lift weights til your arms can’t move
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i can ay least do that…
yeah i do 20 10kg wegihts for that reps
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there…sprayed current cuts with antisceptic…
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