Joker
September 8, 2020, 7:44pm
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I am back from holiday Thursday.
Before I went I was not doing so great.
The reality of going back to whatever you can call a normal life freaks me out
I’d planned to go cold turkey on all my meds when I get back.
I want to implode.
There is nothing keeping me here and I am sick of being kept sane for everyone else’s benefit.
I want hellfire to reign
CoCo
September 8, 2020, 7:46pm
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Why do you want to quit your meds? It doesn’t make sense. Your meds are for you as much as they’re for others
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Joker
September 8, 2020, 7:47pm
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I want complications that are dangerous
Joker
September 8, 2020, 7:48pm
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I will wait until I speak to the pdoc on 14th September
He will be informed that I refuse all their poison
CoCo
September 8, 2020, 7:48pm
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Why? What’s good about dangerous complications? Are you suicidal?
Aziz
September 8, 2020, 7:49pm
7
Yes that’s suicidal/depression.
Joker
September 8, 2020, 7:50pm
8
I feel like there is no intrinsic value in being kept psychosis free
I want to tear the place up
This world is not for me
Not suicidal.
I need to ■■■■ things up beyond repair
I’d rather be catatonic than live one more day
CoCo
September 8, 2020, 7:52pm
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It won’t really make you feel better to tear things up. If you need some kind of physical release, try exercise or tear up old, unneeded papers or punch a pillow. If you can afford one, buy a punching bag, hand it up and have at it.
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Aziz
September 8, 2020, 7:53pm
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Idk I see it as depression. Its like giving up on life.
Aziz
September 8, 2020, 7:55pm
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I feel like that sometimes but talking to someone helps.
Joker
September 8, 2020, 7:55pm
12
This is the problem
The pdoc will put me back on Zoloft just to shut me up
Call your doctor right now. Tell them you are having fantasies of violence. This is very serious.
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CoCo
September 8, 2020, 7:55pm
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There’s no shame in needing Zoloft
Aziz
September 8, 2020, 7:56pm
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For me talking to my parents or friends helps. Even if its only online.
Joker
September 8, 2020, 7:57pm
16
To be honest the mental health wards in prisons are not all that bad
Here it’s a better deal than what the general people have to face
I really really am not impressed
Stupid thing is I should be grateful for what I have, but I am not. I hate it
Joker
September 8, 2020, 7:59pm
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Should I have my mother on the phone to the doctor on the 14th?
I will not be as frank if she is on the call
Joker
September 8, 2020, 8:00pm
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Sorry everyone I know that we need to be recovery orientated but I feel it’s a lie
Joker
September 8, 2020, 8:01pm
19
CoCo:
needing Zoloft
I am done with psych meds
Aziz
September 8, 2020, 8:02pm
20
Think about it, even the bit of life you have now you’ll loose it without meds.