Im sitting here - looking at a months worth of quetiapine, considering taking the bloody lot, and just going to bed and not waking up.
I cant cope. Im not even sad. Ive never felt clearer in my life.
I think its time to say goodbye. Ive done my best. And ive run out of steam.
Quetiapine is sedating, but it would not make you not wake up. There’s only so much an antihistamine can do. I guess that is part of the reason why they are so popular.
-Albert.
Hey Seth. I’m sorry to hear that you are feeling like this. But please don’t do anything that you can’t change back.
You’re a great lad.
Don’t do anything like that @Naarai.
I feel like giving up every so often too. But things turn around.
Im in debt upto my eyeballs - ive just been used left right and centre, and frankly i wanna get off my nut.
Its ok - im not gonna dump my emotions on this forum and then OD. Ive done my night dose and the rest have gone down the toilet.
Im wobbling.
I feel like this has happened to you more than once, if I remember correctly.
I wish there was someone who could somehow support you with your money where you are.
Anyways glad you chucked that rest of meds away, good for ya :)) I think that was a wise decision.
Yeah - im begging the Financial Aid Safeguarding team , to take it all over.
Ive just cut up the credit cards as well.
You really need to speak to someone. Do you have anyone on your medical team you could speak to?
It’s all a bit concerning.
Out of hours now. Theres a mental health line. One mention of harming myself and the blue lights will turn up and ill be stuck in an A+E on a friday night with all the drunks.
Just let me vent. Theres no knives in the house and the pills have gone down the toilet - cos that my policy for keeping myself safe.
Ill try and take my mind off things.
Im idealising suicide. But i will follow my crisis plan.
This is what I tried to explain to the duty worker today
I really do not buy into this recovery
Sorry you have financial problems
For one I am glad you flushed those meds.
Stay strong buddy!
Things will get better. Life will turn around.
I apologise in advance if i talk wierd crap on this forum this evening.
Ive just got it into my head im better off dead - with the angels, whom i hear
when the jabs wearing off.
Ive literally just got medicated - so i dont reckon im psychotic. Its impossibe.
Say what ever you want - people will be here to share the burden.
It’s all we can do is be there.
Might be worth calling the line just to talk, try not to say anything that’ll get you picked up!
Yeah. On my plan, ive written down to take a bath. So i will try to chill out.
I actually feel like a bit of a loser - im better than this. This self-rightous sod is always going on about “coping skills” and “suck it up” and here i am gone down the shitter.
It happens to me too. Can you not have a bath and go to bed and maybe wake up tomorrow in a better frame of mind?
The only thing I find good is going to bed and just sleeping until I reset
Yeah bed is a good idea. Ill write off the day.
Ill read on here for a while first - i find it helpful.
I feel like a child - i just wanna have a good cry, get a hug - and be told everythings ok 
It’ll all be better tomorrow.
A few days I gave up and stopped my meds. Stopping my meds is suicide and possible homicide for me. Thers nothing wrong with complaining I was told here, I complain all the time as I am in a bad situation and sometimes its too much to keep quiet. Complain if it makes you feel better and talk to someone irl about your problems. Maybe a therapist or a Dr or someone close to you.
Yeah i know. Ive been far worse. Suppose i just want my feelings validated by someone else.