I’m starting to contemplate throwing in the towel. I had such a great life before becoming ill…each day is just a reminder of how bad things are now and how good they used to be I’ve had enough 
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Don’t despair… there are others like you even if it’s hard to believe.
We’ve all felt like this but things will get better. If you’re at the bottom things can only get better
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please seek help @Manonmoon don’t hurt yourself please !! try to tell someone you need help with your meds, preferably your psychiatrist. It will get better if you try I promise. just takes time…hold on please !!
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Don’t do anything you can’t undo. Once you throw in the towel you can’t undo it. Maybe you should see about getting inpatient treatment for more intensive counseling. Don’t be afraid to call the hotlines. You’re not in this alone. Life isn’t that bad. It might not seem like it now, but I’m sure you can find things that give meaning and pleasure to your life.
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I’ve gone to all my appointments…seen all the psychiatrists they just simply say you have a psychotic illness…ahhh it’s just hopeless. Mental illness doesn’t discriminate I was born into a rich family…have money good cars what ever it means nothing without you’re perfect sanity.
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No, all the money in the world won’t buy your sanity back.
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I often feel jealous of non-MI people. I feel like I’m pathetic because I hear voices that screw with me all day. I feel like a loser because I don’t have much going on financially. I look at other people my age and they have a job and are married with a kid or two. It makes me feel like I’m no good.
But there are still reasons to live. Just try to focus on the good stuff instead of the bad. Count your blessings, not your curses. I have a nice family even though I don’t have many friends. Things like that comfort me.
I’m just like you. I went to all boarding schools college in Vermont. I used to ■■■■ on people who thought they were cool. Now look at me. I have a psychotic illness too. The doctor told me that I’ll get better but it’s like asthma you will always have it.
The best thing you can do man is lay low and don’t expose yourself too the outside world much because it hurts to see all that you can’t have.
Pray that they find a better treatment. Don’t give up in your 20s though
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Awww man it’s just getting harder and harder it was all taken away from me in a instant
Do you have symptoms all the time?
Yeah mostly never get a break haven’t had any clarity of thought since getting sick
Can ect do anything
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Yea I tried it. And it did help. There’s also Trans magnetic cranial stimulation. I hear that works too.
If it’s any consolation I had a psychotic break when I was 24 and I was really screwed up for about 3 years. And then I moved out west and came off meds and my mind completely cleared up. It is possible that could happen for you too.
I was a jerk and smoked pot after that and had numerous relapses. Don’t do drugs no matter what.
My current doc tells me I have serious untreated depression and if the depression gets better the psychosis should go away. Your disgnosis might change too. You’re too young to throw in the towel.
If I can last 15 years you can do better than a year or two
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Well like I was saying I was normal for years I smoked pot at 16 and had psychotic episode completely cleared up. Last year was just a stresfull time for me so I got on remeron and it turned on my synapses just fried me. I’m depressed because I’ve lost my higher functions the thing in life I had most dear
If it cleared up once it can clear up again. I thought my brain was fried too. It’s not actually fried although it feels like brain damage. A skillful doctor can put your symptoms into remission. I’m on all kinds of stuff. My doc swears that the damage isn’t permanent. It feels like it is but I have moments of clarity. You might be massively depressed dude. Depression can do unbelievably bad things to a man.
I’m taking thyroid hormone for depression and my thyroid isn’t even ■■■■■■ up. They have stuff that works you just have to be patient. It’s not fair man I know, but you could’ve been crippled in a car wreck or paralysed in a swimming accident. This is the stuff I have to tell myself to get by.
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To be honest man being a paraplegic would be better.
It’s only hopeless when YOU decide it’s hopeless. I was in a similar situation around 25 years ago. I fought back and things are a LOT better. (Married, kid, career, etc.).
Recovery IS possible! Don’t give up!
