sorry dude… I feel the same way every day every night but life goes on. Keep going,
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Power on maybe you’ll get manic one day
I hate that I have to trade mental well-being for not feeling like a bag of bricks.
I went from suicidal ideation because of my mind to suicidal ideation because of my body. Thanks, Abilify.
It’ll pass.
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It’s been thirty minutes. You probably need to give it a month, at least, before you can make an informed decision on whether that medication and dose is right for you. Also, call your doctor. It’s irresponsible to change your dose without consulting your doctor first.
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Yeah. Noted. I’ve already called.
I’m already kind of regretting ingesting this garbage anyways. It did calm my mind down though.
Good! If you feel like you’re in a crisis, you need to call someone who can give you immediate help or direct you to someone who can. Changing your dose is not an immediate fix.
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@Lexicon hang in there buddy…you can do this !! Maybe take a nap and see if that changes the channel for you?
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Lol when am I not in crisis? It’s been a few years, at least,
Trying but I’ve slept for 15+ hours the past several days. May try some Valerian Root. Or a good old blanket taped over the window.
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I’m sorry you’re not feeling well. I believe the reason for being of this website is connect people with sz/szA who would otherwise suffer in solitude.
If you want, check in tomorrow and let us know how your visit to the pdoc went. I do believe medication is essential, but there’s an environmental aspect to this disorder, so you want to be in touch with your feelings as to any changes in your social life.
Feel free to send me a PM if you want 
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Has anyone ever asked you if you were codependent?
Do you have a hard time soothing yourself?
My 25 year old nephew shot himself and died last Oct. I miss him very much.
I hope you stay around long enough to exhaust all efforts.
It’s such a shame we keep losing so many folks in this day and age.
Hang on for another day- please?
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I was codependent my entire life, happily so, but I lost everyone close to me in one clean swoop.
I have the same impulse to put a bullet in my head, but I’ve read about people who have near death experiences when they’ve tried to commit suicide, and they say that suicide is no escape. They say you face the same the same problems after death, only they’re greatly increased. I often want to escape by cutting one of my arteries, but then I remember what the people who’ve had near death experiences when they’ve tried to commit suicide say.
@Lexicon Yeah I had this too.
The two APs I have tried so far have caused me to sit on the sofa all day with difficulty/inability to rise from it,
and I am a young guy who does intense aerobic exercise and has very good muscle strength off meds.
And my brain was hardly clear on them.
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Same. The hardly clear part, at least.