I am the one who says for everyone, “Do not Stop”,
buut… IDK. I feel very confused now. Maybe it’s worth giving a try ?
Not today or tomorrow I mean, maybe in few months or a year.
why I ask this… I am pretty stable. I am capable of studying and probably will manage to work.
But I fear one thing, maybe it’s the main effect of meds that I am living normally? Sometimes I don’t know am I ill at all. I know I had a long pscyhosis, I know I became unwell when I suddenly cutted ablify and smoked weed during that week. But maybe weed made me worse, not the fact that I stopped meds?
Also, there is one sad thing in my story. Last mental test I did before 6-7months showed that I have abnormalities in thinking, some psychotic things hapenning. That pscyhologist which tested me said- it’s biological what you have, and probably I should take meds for a long long time or whole life, while my Pdoc believes there’s possibility to stop meds one day.
I fear that meds will make me ill in other ways, physical mainly.
Should I give a try?
Yes I feel the exact same way. I hate the meds and I am afraid that it will make me sick. So I understand completely. I want to come off meds too. But please talk to your psychiatrist. If you still have psychotic thinking quitting meds could be dangerous. I understand that it could be the weed that makes you sick. I tolerate weed, but alcohol makes me a little delusional
yeah, I fear that shakiness I have can turn into something worse… I fear physical illnesses.
I will talk with my doc. I believe she will say to try to be on meds atleast for five years. She had this idea, that if I would be on vraylar on 5 years, I could come off meds, she believes vraylar could heal me. But I tried vraylar for ~4months and it was not the best med for me. So actually IDK what to do.
Both alcohol and weed makes me worse… but weed makes me feel awful for a longer period of time.
It is off topic do you plan on having kids? I had my son previous to developing psychosis. Sometimes I wish I could have another child, but I don’t want to be pregnant either while on Seroquel.
Also Im almost 39 so it is a little late for me to want kids. It is probably just because Im in love.
But are there many withdrawals to your meds or is it easy to wean off?
I think there will be withdrawals for me
I am still not sure. But I always wanted kids. I dreamt of having three.
Now I believe it would be better to have 1-2, because it would be hard to take care of three… mostly because I fear becoming psychotic in the future. It would be hard to take care of them while feeling unwell.
But in fact I also want, and fear of having kids. If it makes sense.
Maybe it’s not too late? I believe it’s okay to have kids till 45 or smth. Maybe it’s a bit more dangerous, but most pregnancies are successful as I know.
Hmm there are some withdrawals. I believe it would be hard on the first weeks
Yes I think the safest thing to do is to discuss things with the psychiatrist when you want to get pregnant. They can advise you whether you should come off meds or just change it to another meds.
Yes I could still have kids but I had to give up my son. I could not take care of him.
Sweeetie… this is very sad.
I hate that bad things can happen to good and loving ppl. I wish I could say something smarter now, but I just don’t know how.
I hope I didnt scare you. A lot of people are good parents despite psychosis. I just didnt get help in time when I had my son. Like I was too proud to admit that I was sick
Mate. ITS THE MEDS. Keeping you stable. Yes you are going to get some right naff side affects, but thats what you got to learn to live with, with schizophrenia im afraid.
And lay off the bloody weed. Its a short term solution - that will cause you long term problems. With your condition - you should not be smoking it.
If your schizophrenic - your playing roulette with your mind on that stuff.
If you wanna seriously come off them, do it tapered - making sure you keep your shrink informed.
Your a decent poster. Dont play with your mental health - just cos your feeling well. Its those meds that are keeping you stable x
I know you’re right.
I just keep quessing why it’s been 5 years when I am stable. Capable of doing things…
I know I know about the part about weed. It’s worst of the all I did. it changed me when I was smoking everyday. It happens very rarely when I smoke now.
I was smoking a lot as a teenager
In last 2 years it was like maybe4-5 times, but I regret it. I just need to never repeat the cycle and end with weed 4ever.
And thanks for taking care of me and reminding these things. Sometimes I feel just way too confused.
I’m not gonna tell you what to do, but I will relay my own experience with just reducing meds. I reduced very slowly starting around the beginning of last year. I got down to about half a dose and kept seemingly to experience increased paranoia and anxiety when I tried to go lower so I ended up staying at that dose for a long time. In February of this year, I relapse again on the reduced dose and spent several months working my way out of psychosis. It was not fun. I am now on the minimum dose of vraylar for schizophrenia and seem to be fully stable again.
For me, I dont think its worth wasting months of my life in psychosis to try to go below recommended dose again. I think most people that try to quit will have a similar experience. The odds are against you, but you are free to try if you think its worth it.
I fear physical illnesses.
I believe it’s okay to have kids till 45 or smth. Maybe it’s a bit more dangerous, but most pregnancies are successful as I know.
Sometimes I feel just way too confused.