hi to all! Iok, I am on my feet in the day today because of the med but for all the other symptoms I have them. I still have the impression to feel my brain in my head. its like compressed by fear and some other stuff… and I even dont feel a sedation on my Zyprexa, nothing. I would really like to feel some relief on my med. is it normal after 5 months of taking it? maybe its too soon still because my illness is 15 years old? gosh… its hard not to feel anything like this, I dont know anymore what is to be normal. I often ask myself what is the normal state when watching the others… I wont switch my antipsychotic anymore, I tried them all…
my pdoc was saying that I shouldnt feel anything on my Zyprexa. does it was the same for you? maybe the good can only come in the future 
thank you all for the past support 
I could only feel desperation on Zyprexa, if it’s any consolation. You do feel things, but negative things.
Did you talk to your mom about therapy again?
Minnie we are not the same I guess. I am really desperate without the Zyprexa. with the Zyprexa, I am on my feet and I started to do small things. with my ex pdoc, we agreed that its the med for me. probably, sometimes its just question of time .me, my illness is that I cant love anymore. I become irritable and anguished… I spent the last 7 years chasing a guy who didn’t love me and now I see that there are some other guys out there. keep going, you too.
Yeah, of course we’re different.
I think you’ve made great progress, don’t sell yourself short.