Should I hire a detective šŸ•µļøā€ā™‚ļø

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Has anyone done it ?
What if, the detective are paid higher than what I paid him ?
Will he submit a fake report ?
Did I make an enemy with the wrong people ?
Why do I fear ?
To get my head over this schizophrenia.

People are ready to make an example of me.

I think only way out of it let go of this worldly pleasures.
But people will talk behind my back.
Because like ā€œthis and thatā€ he ended up that way.

Whatever I do people will talk. Why am I impacted ?
Is my decisions are exposed to the worldā€™s responses.

When did the self talk become so loud ! It started to scream internal and externally.

I think voices are just the side effects of some behavioral issue.

When itā€™s time to think, stress builds up and bam I am lost.

Therefore is it, the way to think is routed with wrong chemical firing :thinking:

Oh crap! I Started of something and ended with something else.

Or does it make sense ?

Sometime I feel I am acting all this out, just to gain attention.
What a big loser am I, I feel like :poop: aww happy poop face though :slight_smile:

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We all want attention just for being us. We are social creatures.

No attention is like being in an empty room with no technology for days. It can drive anyone insane. :v:

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Usually people talk about you because they like you @An_the-c-ology

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@Zoe people are ready to help me but I donā€™t trust them. Why are they reaching out now ?

@Yellowapple I have major trust issue, how do you know whom to trust.

I make stories on everyone around me. Lucky I donā€™t say it on their face. They will be so disappointed.

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I donā€™t know how to help with trust issues, I have the same issue tbh.

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Thatā€™s a big part of the condition: thinking things that are untrue.

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Iā€™m not sure that Iā€™m getting why you would hire a detective. What would he investigate that you canā€™t?

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I feel everyone tries to score points like life is a game. and am a loser in that.

Everyone around me proves me I donā€™t understand the world more than them.

@Jonathan2 He could monitor me like my surrounding, who is creating/ responding sounds as per my actions.
And make a follow up on them. I just now got two miss call unknown numbers. One displayed Donā€™t Me what does that mean :thinking:

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I donā€™t think a private detective can do that. They just follow around people that are cheating, abducting children or other sketchy things.

They canā€™t prove you donā€™t have schizophrenia. And they are definitely not able to prove the metaphysical.

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I understand itā€™s not a good feeling.

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I did not understand this statement.

I searched metaphysical it gave so much information in wiki.
Are you speaking of reality ? canā€™t prove what is real ?

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For example, things like ā€˜coincidencesā€™, ā€˜special meaningsā€™, the paranormal.

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lol Just now, when I went out there was a lady walking with a phone in loud speaker, there was the message unreachable :crazy_face:

I think whenever it becomes evening I am losing my mind, the meds is losing its impact in my head I suppose.

Delusion of Grandiose is the one I should come over with, then everything will be normal :crossed_fingers:

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I like this delusion, because it makes me think thereā€™s a chance of world peace. Lol.

Why do u not like grandiose delusions?

Having said that I believe everyone is equally valuable and equally specialā€¦

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I just happen to feel my own specialness most cos I know me most out of all humans.

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You know sometimes I play like superhuman, If some vehicle is unable to start I just flick my finger the engine starts lol its happened so many times. But when it does not work when its actually needed I am hit with humiliation and severe disappointment.

LIke when I took a lottery of 25C and I actually felt I won for the entire month. Then in the result day what a disappointment. Wasted entire month planning and acting like a billionaire. It was really funny thinking about it.

So true !

I always thought I should do something special from the rest. But i am lost in this delusion.
Itā€™s so worse feeling when I have nothing and feel like superhuman. Itā€™s so dangerous if I start to act on it always.

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Iā€™m sure thereā€™s something unique about u. Itā€™s just ur unique combination of qualities that already makes u unique and special. You are funny, you are eccentric, you are harmless, you are creative in your thinking, you write very expressivelyā€¦ Etc.

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:face_holding_back_tears: thatā€™s something :partying_face: thanksā€¦I am going to treat myself with an ice-cream tomorrow.

By the way you have a zeal about world peace :dove:

Peace be with you !

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You probably shouldnā€™t. If you do, make sure you hire Nero Wolfe.

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