I put this in the DX’d thread so it can include symptom related stuff. Self acceptance has really helped the last few years so here we go. What’s a symptom that makes you feel different but that you think you could learn to love about yourself?
I’ll start. My train of thought can really go off the rails. It’s labeled as disorganized thinking and it can make some things difficult. I’ve come to love it because I also find some really creative ideas at times.
All my symptoms make me feel different. Today I’m trying to remember not to dissociate from my own truths. Stick to the truth about yourself, it’s better that way. I need to focus on something like that or my mind goes off the rails.
Does it ever manifest as clutter? It’s ok my living quarters are in a state of organized chaos, only thing saving me is I don’t like ‘stuff’ that much.
I have a theory that messy people are warmer. But my family fights me on that, haha.
( I also have disorganized thinking.)
What is a good truth about yourself?
Clutter is hard for me. I’ve created a very odd organization system that works for the stuff I have for my job.
People with more clutter tend to be more creative so you can tell your family that. Also, there’s a difference between dirty and cluttered. You can be ok and be cluttered.
People say I can be nice. That’s pretty good. I have my faith too. I mainly talking about looking back on your life when youv’e been mentally ill. I don’t want to dissociate from it too much anymore. It’s just my truth, whatever it’s been. I think that is a big part of self acceptance. I have a major issue with dissociating from my truth. A lot of it can be quite odd or embarassing.
Self acceptance is a hard one. At one point I was told to accept my new place of existence, this is my new self. My nurse said to reinvent myself. That sounds exciting to some except it’s hard when you don’t have the mind to do that. I’m trying to make a new routine for myself that involves a lot of self care and writing but I’m not there yet. The future is not written yet but I will trust it will get better
I saw where you are still trying to understand your diagnosis. It takes time but it’ll get better.
Yes but my pdoc promised me I am not aging early and that my brain is not declining that way. Have.a good day
it was harder for self acceptance when I was overweight…now that I am slimmer I find it easier to love myself…vain I guess.
Not any more vain than the rest of us. I think we all want to feel attractive.
Thanks Alice, I struggle with hygiene though, haha. I should probably get back on Haldol because I was on that for 6 years and didn’t have that issue.
Thanks for accepting my compliments that day/because in the real world I’ve been called a “flatterer” and someone who “tries too hard”.
BUT a lot of women could take a page out of your book and absorb more candor sometimes without going directly to the ‘creep’ word.
A lot of times men blurt out flattery prematurely bc they can’t think on their feet. My secret is a weight and (an obstacle) in that regard. But women look for this trait because it equates to success.
I’ve enjoyed mixing it up with you a lot, and with my ramble style you chose to make me feel like it was a happy accident… and I like that bc it makes me feel like I’m really intelligent when I might need to, or can actually benefit from that.
I’m trying to feel like less of a fraudulent guy though(a lot of people have that complex). The levels of the mind assist people in lying to themselves.
I meant it about Karate Rick from that “scary” movie, maybe I just like spiky hair. I also like the kickboxing in Cameron Crowe’s “Say Anything.”
It’s not you, I’m being complicated and sensitive bc nobody else "liked’ my Vlog. But guess what? Being ‘complicated and sensitive’ is actually ‘ok’. Just some thoughts.
It takes time to gather followers. If you enjoy making the videos then keep at it and I think your audience will grow.
I’ll go for broke; and not the way others might think.
There was an “outer space” movie once I think it was actually “Mission to Mars”. There was this defective guy who said something to this woman about being a king and queen. I believe it ends miserably for him.
This concept is a monkey on my back. It’s like not enough for me to feel ‘attractive’ I need the organization to root for it or celebrate it. But that’s not the way the world works, people resent grandeur, and don’t want the story of their life to pale.
Innate in that is a massive type thing to say/tell BUT I know your established and I guess what I can’t help myself with is your the only instance in my life(albeit small) where a married person didn’t splash cold water in my face! I like Don Quixote bc both parties are single. And as for the Cali girl I’m feeling less interested at guessing at her stupid numbers and figures regarding narcissism or that spectrum. Sz is so much more interesting.
If this bounces off you; I can take it.
Its ok… I respect the others on here and there’s prob great logic behind why this is not for match making. Im addicted to caffeine and sometimes feeling ‘too good’is a bad sign. Plus I think maybe it(caffeine) can make a person psychotic.
But don’t punish me by taking normalcy away. I said on my Match profile I believe (now) men and woman can be platonic.
I’m afraid to watch
@anon64158233 I’m a little confused but that’s partly because I have gotten a headache and my brain is moving slower.
I think men and women can be platonic. I’m happily married with deep commitment to my vows. But I think its perfectly ok for me to communicate as a friend with people on this forum. I honestly like people as a whole and I really miss the social life I had before I got sick. I used to go out with groups all the time. Now I’m too tired most of the time and it wears me out.
Ok. I’m sorry about the tiredness and headaches - I never knew that.
It felt important to speak my truth as they say.
I’m sick as well, and need more attention than I was getting from the group. I thought my video deserved more.
@everhopeful can you vouch here I think it’s really just human interest. “It do be like that sometimes” ( I learned that from Treebeard.)
Lastly maybe the Hallmark holiday did get the best of me.
Everyday i feel like in heaven, and everyday i feel like hell (but i try to avoid hell)
There is a lot of beauty in my innervisions/pictures, and a lot of dull things in the worldly world.