I can do advanced, very hardcore lifting routines in even the worst states…I tore an abdomen when I was 20 whilst still psychotic from skipping my meds and smoking weed. I hadn’t slept for two days.
I just did my leg routine in like thirty minutes I knocked that crap out. Now I’m too brain dead to read and I’m just complaining. I even socially interact quite well like this.
But I just can’t focus due to agitation. I can’t even read. I’ll probably wake up recovered tomorrow.
It’s not like I can’t read. I can’t just sit down and think scientifically. I’m good at questioning everything I read, I even investigated dismantling of the intergroup contact theory and wrote about what I found and cited respected psychologists works about it. That’s a bit advanced and ballsy for an undergrad but it’s legit and one can read what I cited and find it to be legit.
I just can’t do anything but skim my eyes over lines of text and think crazy ■■■■ instead of think about what I’m reading.
Who cares it’s Friday.
But when forced to function 100%, when I have no choice, I can. I just don’t have anyone or anything making me do anything today so I don’t have any reason to do anything but what I feel like. I felt like working out like I’m crazy (I am) and complaining (which I am doing as of this moment).
I don’t quite understand myself. I don’t have the authoritarian personality. I don’t have obsessive compulsive personality. I just have a powerful mind and body and nothing to do with it.
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That is EXACTLY what has been happening to me these past two days… Of course finals are coming up… this brain has great timing… (not) Nothing I read has been sticking… even stuff I’ve been thinking about has merely been passing through…
I find it does happen when stress meets exhaustion.
I bet you’ll feel better soon… but I’m rooting for you
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Dude you’ve got finals. You’ve done harder things and you are harder than exams. As for me, I think my brain is burnt out. I’ve had lots of nasty ■■■■ happen lately. Like getting a deviated septum and broken nose and then my girlfriend dumped me. How could that not affect me?
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I read about your broken nose… how is it now? Did the physician help at all?
I’m sorry about the news with your girlfriend too… are you two still friends at all or was / is it a full break?
I hope the drama with your trainers has settled down.
I left that gym. Krav Maga fighters should not do full contact high power sparring. That ■■■■ is deadly and for self defense, I don’t need to know how to fight ■■■■■■■ experts in hand to hand combat. I can kill a normal person just fine, I don’t need to be able to kill Israeli soldiers without a weapon. That was some ■■■■■■■■ they pulled.
I can’t do surgery for my nose because of the ■■■■ load of drugs that I am on. I just have a slightly deviated septum.
As for the girlfriend she could have done better than dump me over the phone and she likes pot more than me so that’s over.
Dear Mouse,
The teaching I have received is that there are three parts of a human life, mainly thinking, feeling, and doing. Most folks concentrate on two out three and leave one part behind. Well, the majority of folks just want to feel and act; they do little thinking. Then there are the folks who think and do, and they are the captains of industry. Lastly, there are a minority of dreamers who want to think and feel but don’t want to do much. I seem to fall in that last category.
Because I seem to have messed up thinking and out of control emotions, I welcome chances to “do” someting in the name of heatth and balance for myself.
Jayster
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There isn’t any reason to do anything in today’s world-No God looking over our shoulders. One has to accept the contradictions inherent in SZ. The body building isn’t really necessary. It is probably a want rather than a need. Something that is offered, even required, by American society. I’ve taken to walking long distances and can barely get home. I’'m 73. I come home exhausted. I’ve accepted two book titles you offered me. If you are reading at that level, you’ve got reasons to be proud. You say so yourself. You are there where you should be. We have to accept the the contradictions inherent in SZ. I myself would love to go back to college and finish my degree, even go to graduate school and maybe become a teacher. These thoughts come up frequently. Do I do it? As I see it, avolition is holding me back from acting on these wishes.