Schizophrenia is kicking my butt, but Life is treating me fairly

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Maybe I have it backwards, lol. I used to take everything deadly seriously. I used to take myself deadly seriously too. But then one day I said to myself, " Self, lighten up bro. Everybody is laughing at each other, why don’t I join the crowd?"

It hit me like a bolt of lightening. It suddenly dawned on me that it’s OK to laugh at people in puke-green cars. They’re funny. It’s OK to laugh when kids fall down on their butt., (as long as they don’t hurt themselves). Old men who act like idiots are one of my favorite things to laugh at. Women who play funny games are OK to laugh at because they expect it. Someone who acts too cool is funny. But of course, the only exception is me.

My biggest laugh is people who act like they know me. I’m not stupid. I know how hard Life is, everybody knows it. Kids in high school know it. Christ, even kids in sixth grade know it. But there’s nice people out there in the world. I know it and you know it.

I know there’s actually strangers who are cool, in fact much to my surprise, some strangers like me. Even some women strangers. When I walk down the street I say “hi” to people who are coming the other way. It doesn’t hurt and they seem to like it. It’s called mutual respect.

I strongly dislike a couple of my neighbors. I don’t they’re too thrilled with me either, lol. I know not everybody likes me and that’s OK. That is a minor problem. I can handle that. It’s actually harder for me to handle people who like me!! Anyway, this post is written by 77nick77 after six hours of work, after a 45 minute commute home through traffic on the freeway, and a large diet coke in me, and after walking 5 blocks to get home in my 55 year old body.

Anyways, this is enough from me. I think I’ll lay down for a nap now and laugh to myself about people who think they’re smarter and better looking than me.

In the immortal words of our leader, Darksith, “Hey folks, take care” and be good to yourselves.

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You are so optimistic, Nick. I can feel it from your words.

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I am optimistic because I’m lucky. Despite my disease I have accomplished certain things. I am a big believer in self help and I model myself after certain people who have what I want. I’m far from perfect but I see people in my life who have stayed positive despite life’s challenges and I see people who I think are nice people and I use them as examples.

I am very lucky and I appreciate it, but I have also put in the hard work to make my life better. And when someone tells me I helped them it just strengthens my resolve to do the very best I can in this tough life and share my hope and experience with someone else in the hope that it raises them above their circumstances.

I’m not a saint but I am surely not the devil. I try to be as nice as I can while I am on this planet. In AA they told me to stick with the winners. Not everybody can win, but if someone is suffering with this cursed disease and they reach out for help or try to help themselves than they are winners in my book.

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I guess the way to sum it up is to quote the “Bill and Ted’s Excellent Adventure” quote “Be excellent to each other.” I would say the other quote but I don’t care for parties. Good night.