First post ! 
I think @Pikasaur must be asleep if I got the first post in this brand new thread.
Anyway , sorry to all the other “first post” wannabes. Better luck next time !
Having said that. I’m #1 so why try harder !
Second post 1525
I had to clean the litter boxes today. That’s always so fun.
My wife screams at me and tells me I am not doing it right but she wouldn’t dare do it herself.
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so dad passed up a free meal. I wanted to go out for another steak tonight at the casino. he wasn’t hungry he said. I had to settle for leftovers. it was a one time offer.
also I notice that lately he has been making me pay him back for takeout. in the past he would just buy stuff for me. I don’t like this new phase he’s in.
My mom says she sees me as a good christian living a christian life. I wish I believed that.
according to that I used to have anxiety disorder. I think it was mostly brought on by acne. it made me avoid everything and be embarrassed to go out anywhere. I finally cleared my skin up on a vegan diet, paleo works for me too, and my anxiety disorder naturally started getting better.
I do get panic attacks on occasion though but haven’t had one in months now, not since summer. I bought some valerian tea and catnip tea to calm my heart beat down when it happens but I haven’t needed it lately. I tried to get my pdoc to prescribe me a benzo for it prn but she didn’t. I used to trigger myself by talking a little too openly about how I felt about certain stuff like war or police for example and then getting paranoid about it and I would have a panic attack.
Nice pic of yourself
I am downtown at one of the nutcracker ballets. My niece who is ten has a small dance part in it.
I slept pretty well today, just woke up, feeling refreshed, just having some coffee.
I slept for three hours this afternoon. Nothing on TV. I thinking my back is causing my hips to hurt.
Ah the seats at this music hall were not designed for fat people. If someone was like 300 hundred pounds I dont know what they would do.
Happy holidays!
I had thumb twitching pretty persistently from meds, and I dosed some electrolytes (potassium, sodium, calcium) and it went away. Phew.
have a strong urge to get a pack of cigarettes right now. it’s been a couple days since my last smoke. I think im starting to get attached to them for the first time. they help pass the time, my days are more enjoyable when I smoke about 6 or 7 cigs a day. worrisome. I guess quitting smoking will be another new year’s resolution. when I went to the Medicaid office to apply for Medicaid one of the questions asked if I was a smoker, I said no, which is historically true, I’ve only been smoking now for 2 months. the urge to smoke is worse now that I don’t drink because before drinking was my thing, now that im sober I’m so bored all the time that I want to light up. I don’t have anything to get rid of this urge to smoke like a cup of coffee for example. that said I got to quit coffee too.
Oh god we just lost to the titans
interception in the fourth quarter we are screwed no playoffs
I would be careful smoking here and there. It could easily become a full-time habit and it’s one of the hardest ones to break. I’m sure you know that. I’m just saying.
