Made my cowboy coffee. Turned out good.
Just been for my weekly swim and my upper body feels like jelly.
Swimming is a serious work-out!
Yeah it’s great, I can eat what I want and not put on any weight.
Doing real well on my new med Wellbutrin. Makes me feel very good and somewhat normal. I was on this in college when I was bipolar and it did wonders for me, so getting it prescribed again was a huge deal.
The doctor said that it may cause irritation or amplification to the voices, which it hasn’t done yet. I’ve lost so many days to depression, when I feel good I can act normal. Looking forward to a shower in an hour when everybody’s up then a free pizza (every seventh pizza is free from dominos online). I might get hotwings too.
Dominos is my one splurge thing. Its a lot cheaper here than in California (the coupons there were so limited and the price so high… I’d pay 22 dollars for what costs me like 13 over here in Virginia). I order it once a week usually.
I got off topamax and depakote. I’m only on Vraylar and Trazodone (for sleep). I take sarcosine, l-theanine, and ashwaghanda.
I wonder if I should lower Vraylar to 3mg or ask for a stimulant like Adderall. Maybe an anxiety medication, instead?
I guess affiliate marketing is not my thing. Just can’t gain any traction without money. I need salable skills to make money from zero, so data analysis is starting to look attractive again, even though it may be math-heavy.
Reading some of “How Not to Be Wrong The Power of Mathematical Thinking”, while above my head a lot, has given me motivation to learn more about statistics, and has shown me that a lot of these so called studies are ■■■■■■■■. I’ve fallen victim to this online (especially on this forum) when studies are published/linked with a p < 0.05 and people say “take this” or “this is good”. I don’t fully understand it because of cognitive problems, but I found the topic of p-hacking particularly interesting. That is, how the study/data is manipulated to pass/get published. I guess they don’t publish failed studies?
I guess be careful when someone online says “this [blank] diet helped me loses 15 lbs in two weeks and cleared up my acne.” Or that this study says this supplement is good. Just because one study says a supplement is good, doesn’t necessary mean it is. I (think) it just means it’s just more likely than not or that the null hypothesis is unlikely. It’s not logically strong as reductio ad absurdum.
The author talked about Fisher (the father of the significance testing) and his contemporaries who advocated confidence intervals.
In the book, they talked about how you could get p < 0.05 but still have a null hypothesis that is obviously correct. It’s pretty interesting/confusing. Like if your study/paper says/concludes “dead fish can read minds” even though you know it’s obviously wrong. It’s just very unlikely that your results happened. It could be random noise in the brain (or something) that just so happened to correlate/match up (I guess) with images of people with emotions using an fmri machine…or something else like haruspicy. Haruspicy is wrong, but do it over and over again, and you’re bound to get something right, sometimes, although very unlikely.
The author talked about how statistical methods can be overpowered or underpowered in the studies…and how things might need to change in the future.
Last, the book mentioned schizophrenia and genes a couple of times. I’m almost halfway done with the book. I didn’t expect it to be about statistics lol. Maybe this should be the one book I re-read. It’s definitely challenging for me. It also pissed me off a few times.
Going to a lecture/talk thing today about hearing voices. I’m really looking forward to it 
I used to like watching Daria. Haven’t seen it in years!
I’d like to go to something like that, where do you go for that sort of thing @Pikasaur?
@Pikasaur lives in either Denmark or Finland. I can’t remember which.
I had a headache i took a pill now much better 
my place has a mouse problem. mom’s caught 5 in the last 3 months. they get up in the drawers and on the countertops if we leave anything out. there’s one dead mouse waiting to be desposed of right now. dad can do it, im not touching it.
I hate mice. I hate them more than bugs.
Good morning friends 
just another month or two to put up with mom’s ukulele playing. it’s starting to drive me crazy, she just keeps strumming, no fingerstyle or nothing, just change chords and strum. she’s playing right now, I think she has peaked. haven’t heard any improvement in months.
hunting white tailed deer doesn’t fire me up. I’ve never hunted one, I was vegan for 4 years in fact. around here people shoot their guns and some even own woods they use exclusively for hunting.
I’ve seen so many white tailed deer in my life, they are all over the place, the bucks are solitary as far as I know and the doe’s travel in packs. when you see one cross the road there are usually 4 more that follow.
fortunately I’ve never hit one with a car, they show up on the side of the road pretty frequently. I think they sell deer whistles you can put on a car that are supposed to deter the deer but I don’t know if they really work or not.
I have had deer jerky before though, when I was in my teens and didn’t think twice about what I ate.