I ordered 1 scoop of ice cream and he gave me the BIGGEST scoop in the friggin world. Can’t complain lol but it was a bit much. I gave him a tip which I didn’t have to.
its time for buckets of coffee and 40 fags
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i served my time, my heart was frozen for the guts of 10 years, from 2000 to 2010…Jesus carried the cross for a day…i carried my cross for 10 years…
im adding fuel to all the good in the world…
So while I’m turning in my sheets
And once again I cannot sleep
Walk out the door and up the street
Look at the stars beneath my feet
Remember rights that I did wrong
So here I go
Hello, hello
There is no place I cannot go
My mind is muddy but
My heart is heavy does it show
I lose the track that loses me
So here I go
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
And so I sent some men to fight
And one came back at dead of night
Said he’d seen my enemy
Said he looked just like me
So I set out to cut myself
And here I go
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
I’m not calling for a second chance
I’m screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don’t give me choice
’Cause I’ll just make the same mistake again
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
And maybe someday we will face
And maybe talk but not just speak
Don’t buy the promises 'Cause
There are no promises I keep
And my reflection troubles me
So here I go
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
I’m not calling for a second chance
I’m screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don’t give me choice
’Cause I’ll just make the same mistake
I’m not calling for a second chance
I’m screaming at the top of my voice
Give me reason, but don’t give me choice
’Cause I’ll just make the same mistake again
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
So while I’m turning in my sheets
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
And once again I cannot sleep
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Walk out the door and up the street
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Look at the stars
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Look at the stars falling down
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
And I wonder where
Uhuh uhuh uhuh
Did I go wrong
Well you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you’ll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast
You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you’ll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies
But you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast
Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
Cause you loved her too much and you dived too deep
Well you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
And you let her go
Well you let her go
Cause you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
Cause you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you’ve been high when you’re feeling low
Only hate the road when you’re missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go
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I’m in a strange hotel and I’m so scared! I hope I sleep, tonight.
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Still selling paintings in olx & Facebook. Still doodling cartoons. Still singing like a crazy person in my garage & shower. Everydays the same. Therapy tomorrow.
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Went and visited Abe Lincoln’s house in Springfield today. Just as underwhelming as last time.
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Sorry for my blabbering here. 
You can chose to ignore this post because it is probably pretty blabbery.
It has no place here.
But its on my mind…
and i dont have friends in person…
my (adopted?)family lives over seas.
the others i dont see as my real family and dont really want in my life…
I repent and im sorry.
I truly repent and apolagise and am disgusted that ive had sex with some of the people ive had sex with.
I was seeing them. meeting them as bf i guess.
Ive was seeing people that hate me and that i probably dont like much and who i am definately not compatible with.
I do not hate anyone or wish anyone bad but there are people i dont like and that i dont want in my life.
There are people i can still say hello to and possibly even perform activity with but that i should not have as friend and definately not bf.
they are so malicious.cheat with fair etc.
Im not attracted to them in any way, shape and form and the saliva was soooo disgusting.
Their salivas probably lovely for another woman but it was repulsive combination.
me and last man i was seeing in person was disgusting combination. not compatible.
Yuck.
no offence to him . we just were not compatible and he was not nice in reality but malicious i think and etc.
Im so sorry. i apolagise to myself.
i was celibate for 5 or 6 years and what a disapointment to break celibacy with some one im not compatible with and who i felt hated me and malicious to me.
I wont beat my self up over it but simply apolagise.
hope i can be cleaned and purified from such yuckiness.
I dont like the word bimbo but does it make me a bit of a bimbo that ive been with these men…
But my energy is usually not in my body and sometimes others are.
Maybe i was programmed to be with them but does that make me weak for obeying a program…
although i did not obey when they programed me be prostitute .i said no.dont want my body doing such.
I hope i did not contract disease from bf s i had.
will ask my gp check this.
What a waste of time it may of been.
to be with those nada good chemistry and dont get along and etc
I actually think it is malicious woman in side the mens bodies but there are men that are jealous of me also.
Probably the usual reasons.
Last 2 bf i had i should not of had.others either. Nada chemistry etc
Maybe i thought they liked farm life, nature and animals but thats not reason enough…
i should of stayed celibate.
what a waste. how yucky.
the saliva combination was so disgusting and all i can do is repent and apolagise to myself above all.
In spirit ive recently/currently dated someone im really compatible with.
We are attracted to each other.have good chemistry, can laugh together , hang out etc.
I really want to meet him irl and make things happen and marry and live together and have really nice life and moments etc.
we had sex in spirit but not in person.
i loved it.
just about all the sex ive had with my body has been really bad and i have a feeling it may of been with woman who dont like me and some who hate me i mean extreme hate and maliciousness but who are in in men bodies.
i love sex but … 
depends with who etc
I would love intimacy and even privacy and beyond great and passionate yet affectionate, sacred and loving and playful and just super …
there may be other people that dont want us to meet and be together.
not let em stop us.
Also as im disabled it can be complicated getting contact with me…
I have actually changed some of my views/opinions now as i am no longer muslim.
I was muslim for one year.
Thats only time ive been religious.
Now i beleive in something and do believe in prayer but am not member of any religion and am not religious.
Still on dating site but i feel i might have to say no to those who have young children living full time with them.
My disability might make me socially awkward around them.
on another level im probably great with kids n would of made a awsome mother i reckon.
would of loved it. but cant have children anymore.
Not that many interested in me on this site but appreciate some have written to me even though none of profiles seem right for me some how.
I think some one separated is still legally married so rather not go there till they available.
So I think I say no now a days to those profiles say separated.
When the sun comes out from behind the clouds and it’s warm, bright light fills the apartment. 
Pure joy!
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When I’m here I don’t feel I am among the dead anymore.
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And Jonny doesn’t mind if he doesn’t make the scene! He’s got a daytime class, he’s doing alright! He could rap the honky tonk like anything! Saving it up for Friday night! With the sultans, he’s got the sultanssss of swing!
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My brother and his girlfriend made me come to a strip club at 1am with them, last night.
I was tripping out the whole time. Bad vibes, people kept staring, all the dancers looked scared and sad. I had only one drink and it made me shake and increased my fear.
The last dancer kept staring at me right in the eyes, reading my brain. She knew what I was thinking. I didn’t want to be there…
The waitresses all seemed fake. They were trying so hard to act sexy, and it was obvious. I was suspicious and sad for them at the same time.
Everyone looked shady, I felt like someone wanted to hurt me. I ended up leaving in a hurry and walking back to the hotel alone, in the middle of the night. Even more scary… Not every doing that again.
Hmmm project of the week so far has been looking into E-cigs. Illegal to sell in my state but not to buy. Asking around I may have found a local source. The plot thickens. Pixel didn’t call me dances with wolves for nothing. 
Which state? I didn’t know that there were specific anti-vaping laws in any state.
I’m in Australia for one.
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Oh…lol. I’m not the brightest bulb sometimes. Hope all goes well in your search for an e-cig. They’ve radically improved my quality of life!
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