We talked about my increasing paranoia, especially around the trigger of people slamming their car doors outside. There’s nothing I can do to avoid that so it makes it particularly hard to deal with.
I told her my Klonopin hasn’t been working as well despite my rationing it to three or four doses a week instead of the 14 I am prescribed. She wants me to take two Klonopin a day for the next four days to see if increasing in a rush like that can reset my system. I see her in a month again and we will change benzos at that time if I need to. In the meantime, she wants me to make sure we can’t stay on Klonopin effectively. I’m supposed to call her on Monday and tell her how the increased Klonopin went.
She is more than happy to try Propranolol with me but she wants me to get clearance from my primary care doc first. She said that Propranolol works for fight or flight anxiety, can be taken PRN, and is not habit forming. I wanted to ask why we haven’t talked about it before now, but held my tongue. So now I have to try to get in with my primary doc before my appointment next month. I wish i didn’t have to jump through that extra hoop but I understand she is being cautious. It’s a cardiac drug, after all.
I wish more happened to help today instead of just talking about what might help. 'But at least she heard the worst of my paranoia and hallucinations. She did say she won’t increase my Haldol past 30 mg, not that I asked her to.
Oh well, I see her again in a month to do my disability paperwork, so hopefully I can get Propranolol started soon. I really want to try it.
I mentioned on another thread of leaf’s that my sister has been in the hospital for complications of a high risk pregnancy. Today I.T.B. was born at 2:19 at 20 weeks and three days. She lived for two hours and passed away in her daddy’s arms.
Fortunately, my sister is safe even though she had complications to her safety as well. I don’t know what i would do if I lost her.
I’m so sorry. Tell her to look into Molly Bears. They make weighted teddy bears that weigh the same as your baby for stillbirth and infant losses. I love mine.
I will do that, thank you. For pets, they make Cuddle Clones where you send your photos and they make a stuffed animal that looks just like your furbaby. I got one each for my mom, sister, and myself. Perhaps i can get the birthweight and gift them a Molly Bear. Great suggestion!
I’m so sorry, Shmookitty. I read in another thread that you are having a rough time, and this certainly qualifies. I’m really, really sorry to hear about your sister’s loss, and I hope that your medication all works out. My heart goes out to your whole family.
I totally hear you, paranoia utterly sucks.
I too am trying a high blood pressure pill( clonodine) as a prn for anxiety attacks. It has really helped me. I hope it helps you the same.
I am so, so sorry for your, the daddy’s, and your sister’s loss. I wish the best recovery and healing for all of you. That must be so hard to lose a baby. I agree about the Molly Bears. That sounds like a great way to cope with the loss for your sister.
