Sorry, typo mistakes…
I have erotomania, so yeah I’m kinda always thinking about love and sex and it’s a horrible delusion 
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Thank you for your answer. Sometimes I believe I have erotomania as well. But I thought that the subject for your feelings would have to be someone that you don’t know, like a famous person.
But it is a lot of building up love in your fantasy? Isn’t it? For me something is happening, but when alone my imagination turns it into something completely else
My erotomania is about a girl that isn’t famous, it’s a normal person and yes I didn’t knew her either.
There isn’t much of a build up fantasy, like marriage, house and kids. My voices usually go straight to the point and talk a lot a about sex. But yes lately I’ve been hearing a lot “it’s almost there” or whenever I do stupid financial decisions they say “don’t worry” because they say that she’s rich a lot of times.
I also struggle more alone, one of my worst periods was when I had a ton of days that each time I looked at a guy who was taller or prettier than me they would say “You are not worth it, he’s better looking” and so on.
It’s a terrible delusion, dating by itself isn’t easy and it seems we play it in extra hard level.
My delusions started like 8 or 9 years ago and since then my voices told me where she lived and guided me to her house but I never seen her in front of my eyes. Since then my voices say a lot that she’s crazy about me and so on, but she never had the courage to talk to me.
So the best advice I can give you, based on my personal experiences, is try to move on, be available to date another person. You have value and even if the person exists you don’t deserve to wait forever.
Since my delusions started I could only dated one girl and it was great, I only heard my voices when she left. Every time I was with her I didn’t think about my erotomania.
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Sorry for my late response. I Hope you will see this post. But how did you manage to get over him? And how long did it take place?
I have known my bf for 2,5 almost 3 years. I’m getting more and more sure that my feelings toward him is in fact a hallucination.
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If Any body have some advice how I can get through this please do tell. I’m very depressed with my on and off relationship and all my delusions of how it is meant to be, when it doesn’t fit reality at all and just makes me dissapointed
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I got over him because I didn’t fulfill his needs.
The only reason I was infatuated with him cos he was really ambitious guy in real life. And then when he had tactile sex hallucination with me and touched me, I sort of became fascinated by the hallucination of him.
I got over him because he had these needs that I couldn’t fulfill and it meant I would have to go to hell instead unless I help him see that he and my sister are good for each other (that was my opinion)
Basically, he found me so awkward that he either wanted me to overcome that by becoming his partner since we had a deepest connection according to his world energy map or else I need to go to hell so that he can create world peace on earth without my awkward energy presence.
So there was too much pressure on me to be everything he needed or else I go to hell.
And that put me off.
Sorry didn’t mean to write a book lol
But in the end he said I need to go to hell anyways because I have a type of energy that can help to fuel world peace from a place in hell lol.
Since I wasn’t able to fulfil his partner needs and I didn’t know how to relax with him… Surprisingly!!
Sorry to hear that. It must have been really Hard believing that you were going to hell if you couldn’t fullfill his needs.
Did medication help you or did it just stop?
I did have a short period were i believed that it would be the end of the World (literaly speeking) if I was sleeping with another man.
Maybe you and your bf need to take a break at the very least if you feel it might help?
Which medicine and doses are you on, unless it’s private?
@anon8091425 I just re read that you do indeed go on breaks, it sounds really tough what you’re going through.
Perhaps you need an adjustment of your medical prescriptions if it’s been a while on what you’re on right now
Thankyou, yes it was scary.
Yes the medication helps according to my cpn.
Things have improved.
I highly recommend therapy for something like what you are going through.
Do you speak to your bf about this?
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I tried to answer that I’m on olanzapine 2,5 mg (to be honest I hate it) I’m seeing a therapist as well, actually I have been consulting more than one, and they all agreed that I should stay away from him.
My bf is schizophrenic as well And unfortunately he finds my hallucinations very interesting And is flattered by them.
I Hope you don’t mind me asking but did your ex boyfriend also have a diagnosis with something? It doesn’t seem normal that he tried and convince you that he did have the power to send you to hell.
Afterall he doesn’t sound like a Nice person.
Me too. Because they made me think he was British at first and he was nothing like that.
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the man that i had a soft spot for in real life was never my boyfriend. he is a religious founder alive today.but i have met him before in real life.
the thing about hell was the hallucinations talking to me, not him in real life, but him as a hallucination.
it sounds like the hallucinations are so enjoyable to you that you feel a bit disappointed by the actual real relationship.
it does sound concerning if i am understanding that correctly…
does that bother you a lot, the disappointment?
because if it does, then it really might be a good idea to let him go, so that you feel better, in the long run, and also for him. i am not you though, this is just an outsider perspective, do you not think it might help to part ways?
and work on your own health, hopefully you have another support network other than your bf
I have told him that we can’t be together anymore. We were not having a real relationship at the moment though.
Yes I’m some how dissapointed. In reality we doesn’t have a lot in common and we have really different personalities also he isn’t very Nice to me. But I have had a lot of delusions about him which is difficul to let go on.
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I was in the same position when I was with my gf. I also had delusions about her etc Sometimes delusions were hostile like thinking she poisoned my coffee etc I met her a year before my diagnosis but I had sz symptoms before my diagnosis. I am happy honestly now that I got rid of her, she didn’t have any mental illness though.
Sorry to hear this.
I can sort of understand perhaps.
Does your pdoc not suggest raising the dose I know it sounds difficult as the meds have side effects
But just remember that the delusions and hallucinations are not literally true necessarily so don’t literally trust them.
You deserve to be in a fulfilling relationship @anon8091425
So breaking up sounds like the best thing it would be difficult initially but worth it if your professional team agrees.