It all started while i was using marijuana…as usual i was having marijuana after few months i heard a voice a female voice in my head but i thought it came from the building next door to mine…firstly i ignored then after some time i talking to that voice…i thought it were the best days of my life for atleast who have come to know my existence & accept me for who i was…it was fun for some time but after few months i became addicted to that voice ,i don’t how but i was communicating with that voice in a daily basis but i never saw her i told her that plzz come to see me in person…but she wont so i accepted it & was conversing with that voice but it only happens while i was being high…then suddenly i was sent to rehab for 6 months but when i came to my home the first thing i wanted to hear that…VOICE…then i was consulted to psychiatrist & then he told me that is my illness & termed it as AUDITORY HALLUCINATIONS…as it was a part of SCHIZOPHRENIA… & my family said their was no one really their ,all said that i was hallucinating…then i cried for first time in a long time…i wanted to be that voice for real but in reality their was no one their …its been 4 to 5 years that i am diagnosed by schizophrenia …BUT to be true i still want to believe or to say i still believe that their was someone…some times i looked in the sky & wonder about those memories that i spent with that voice & smile cause i would not trade those memories for all the money in the world…
I can empathize with you…when I was delusional I believed my ex fiancee had come back to me and loved me. after seven months of believing this I finally stabilized and found out it was all a lie…our minds lie to us when we are ill. Sorry this happened to you.
It’s ok now I am recovering from it …but sometimes I just ask “Why me”… anyways thanks for your concern…I hope you have all the love that a person could ask for…& be happy in your life
yes…“why me?” I had to stop pining for what is not real to fully accept my illness…thank you for your well wishes…I am in love now and happy…
It’s a blessing to find love & to live happily…I am still searching… maybe I will keep searching for the rest of my life…haha… anyways I am happy for you…God bless you
In my first psychotic episode I was in love with the voice of goddess Annette… I even wrote her a love letter asking her to marry me…
Yeah me too I used to sing songs with her, dance but only in my dreams fight & again compliment her to make up to her…it’s like living in relationship but only it was not real
I had a very close relationship with my goddess. Now I am over it…
But for me still their is something that wants to believe that if…if only it was real…but it will never be…
Hey @Deep I have a similar issue with you! Everyday I listen something about some girl that never wanted to see me or talk to me.
It’s hard not to feel empathy with someone you listen every day, even if you are rejected. Usually when we are rejected we can forget at go try something with someone else and that’s it.
Yet for me it’s complicated being with someone else when I have to remember her when I am with another girl.
No one in my family listen to voices so they like to say I’m the chosen one for her 
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I will be honest I hate listen to things that she did(or suffered), it’s awful! When I started taking the meds it got a little better, but even with them I can’t forget her.
Unfortunately my voice crush is real, I saw her a couple of times but it was before I listen to voices. I always try to say that I don’t wanna be her boyfriend, just a friend. I hate not being free to be with whoever it is and not thinking about her. I already tried once and it took more time than usual to gave a kiss to that girl. They usually try to influence me not to get any girlfriend cuz they say that she suffers with it. I hate it 
Good luck with your voice lover, you’re not alone 
Good to know that i am not alone…i also hate her(the voice) but when i try remember the past their were some pretty bad things & some good things ,to tell you the truth i don’t know whether it happened for good or bad but i happen to grow as person after the episode but i still hope if only she was real…but i am not only one who was this delusional…
Its the same as she was jealous if i approached a different girl she messed up my mind…
It’s awful we deserve to be happy with whoever makes us happy!
I forgot once I stood near her apartment and someone open the door when I was in the stairs on the floor below and she said: “He is here isn’t it?” to a girl that appeared and then I run away. I also had visual hallucinations near her apartment, but there were hands pointing to the wrong apartment.
I also stood in front of her car once and then they made go away and when I returned her car wasn’t there. This episodes were when I was on my 1st and only psychosis, it lasted for months!
If I really want to I can know where she lives and wait for her there, she will know I’m there too. But I’m tired of rejections and I deserve better than being rejected all the time. She even said that I can find a new girlfriend(with voices) so these days I hope I can get lucky again and find an awesome girl that enjoys being with me, that’s all 
I can relate to this .this is how my sz started for months I was communicating with a female voice from my past I thought it was some sort of telechinis.i just about fell in love with this voice but now I realize I fell in love with the idea of it.it was all good for months just communicating with this one female voice then out of the blue more voices turned up and they wasn’t as nice as the intetiol voice it was a total 360 the other voices were dam right evil this lead to my hospitalisation and my diagnosis.
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