Really i take my hat of to you all for putting up with this illness i think id rather lose a leg than have sz. sometimes am suicidal have tried a few times but just cant seem to go through with it am less suicidal now but days drag n just wish i was my old happy self never feel like that again and it sucks rest of my life like this wtf i didnt deserve this no one did. Respect to you all
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Are you having suicidal thoughts? You can do this. You can, with help, cope and get through this. Do you have any support from anyone? Family? Friends? A therapist?
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You’re right no one deserves this. But this is the hand we’re dealt so now we have to do our best. Some days that’s not enough and we just crumble and other days we do ok. So hold on for the good days. Just hold on.
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Thank you for replys. Am suicidal all the time truth be told but am not man enough to do it tried hanging myself that didnt work. I dont think i can live rest of my life like this i will kill myself eventually
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It gets a lot better but you have to work for it. All of us on this forum have been through the worst of it and come through the otherside. I go to school, I work, and am going on a date tonight. 2 years ago I was institutionalized for a bit. @Ninjastar we could use some suicide resources
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Have being diagnosed over a year but i suspect have had it for years. It doesnt get better tho im scared to leave my flat over paranoi i have nobody my mums dead which makes me depressed no family nobody am better of dead i cant wait until that day
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Listen. I was homeless and starving, living off trash and mcdonalds. You are in recovery and have insight. You don’t know how huge that is. Have you tried reaching out for support? Caseworker? Clubhouse? Rehab services? I have used all of these services to get better and it helped me. Also tell your doctor about the suicidal thoughts. I told mine, got put on an ssri, and now they are gone. Take time to enjoy your time off now from life. Learn to enjoy the simple things. But I really emplore you to get a caseworker so you will have someone to support you if you are alone. It’s what I did.
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Hey @YorkshireLad . You’ve got us here. We’re all here for you. Never give up hope.
You do sound very depressed. Is your psychiatrist aware of this ?
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The answer is blowing in the wind…
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If you are feeling suicidal, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a suicide prevention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries.
International suicide hotlines:
Suicide hotlines in the U.S.:
https://www.thetrevorproject.org
More resources:
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You don’t know that. It gets better for most people. You may not be able to see that now in your own life but read these posts on this site and you’ll see that most of us were where you are at some point but things got better. But you don’t recover overnight, it takes time and work and help.
In 1980 I was diagnosed at age 19. I got put in my first group home and I spent a year there going through hell all day, every day. I got kicked out and three weeks later I was in the hospital. I lived (if you can call it living) in there for 8 months. It was solid suffering. I then spent the rest of the 1980’s in group homes, and hospitals.
I’m 58 now. Now, I live on my own in my apartment. I work part time, take online classes, drive my own car, manage my own finances, and entertain myself. My life is far from perfect but I am grateful for it and I have had a bunch of great experiences to reflect on. Life is still hard but I have many good moments.
I’m trying to show you how things improve. When I was 19 I saw no hope. I could never have imagined back then that I would be looking back on being employed almost steadily since 1983 and being so close to getting my college degree. At 19, I was so messed up psephologically that no one who knew me back then would have ever guessed I would do anything in my life. But here I am.
You just don’t know what the future will bring. You can’t tell what your future will be by what’s happening in your life presently. If I learned anything in life its that most people have potential. I’ve seen too many miracles and comebacks with people who have schizophrenia to give up on anybody.
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I don’t have any reason to live but I don’t have any motivation to kill myself. I find those are 2 very different things.I just survive each day miserably. Only sleep is good.
I know a person who tried to hang themselves & instead was left with an acquired brain injury. She has a very poor quality of life due to the injury - a violent temper & in and out of the psych ward often.
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I respect you as well. You are rowing with us on the same boat. Wish you a place on the sundeck…
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You can do this! I’m having an episode, but still here. C’mon, now… feel what you feel… talk about it. I’m here.
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You’ll get through this @YorkshireLad. We’re all here for you!
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Very inspirational post @77nick77!
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